Discussion Why do you frequent Sasu?

[Nemaki Arber]

I came here because I needed info on suicide methods, but then I found belonging to a place that needs to exist

 

[nyapoka]

i've thought a lot on an answer to this question, i think it's (aside from method research) a sense of belonging, even though i don't interact often, being here feels like a group hug with people who understand me

 

[manchuman123]

I searched for a place that people understood what it felt like. And to not be censored on certain things

 

[oneeyed]

i've thought a lot on an answer to this question, i think it's (aside from method research) a sense of belonging, even though i don't interact often, being here feels like a group hug with people who understand me

+1 to this. Sasu is a comfortable corner of the Internet us outsiders can hangout in. Explore options. See if i read something that can help with my survival instinct

 

[Daphne]

Only place people can be honest about wanting to CTB

 

[Mytimeisending]

Im new here, but so far this place makes me feel not crazy, and not alone knowing there's plenty of others feeling the same way I do. The world out there paints us out to be crazy, but in reality we just want a break from the world and unfortunately we wasn't given that so we resort to worse outcomes.

 

[RMDuck]

I come here when I'm feeling down, there was a time when I was here for CBT. every once in a while I remember the forums and come back

 

[iLikeFrogs]

I've been suicidal pretty much my whole life. it's hard to find people who would even come close to understanding how I feel. It's nice to be in a community where we can freerily talk about our struggles and be around understanding people, even now that I put a halt to building my plan and tried recovery again

 

[belowaveragefish]

I just use this place as a way to vent. I haven't found something that makes me happy, so I cope with venting here when i need to. It's actually been very helpful and I'm a lot more at ease with things these days.

 

[zardoz]

I don't know.
50% of it is good, as in thoughtful, beautiful, insightful, heroic, stoic, suffering, human beings, and a community that supports that.
10% is ignorant pro-lifers who just don't get it, or SaSu (including journalists etc in that who have a preconceived negative agenda).
40% is kids (undsr 18) suffering from teenage angst, that shouldn't be here at all, on a site where adults are supposedly free to discuss suicide. Surely there must be more suitable outlets for this (their angst). Imho this will be SaSu's undoing.
I get the impression that SaSu is changing/has changed from recent times, possibly into something that's out of control.

 

[Bardbarian]

I wanted information on suicide methods. after browsing around i made an account pretty quickly. this forum gave me the same sense of relief that I got when I went into my first AA meeting to realize that there are people like me who understand me.

 

[Homsi1632]

I wouldn't say I'm frequent. When I come here, it's usually to research methods. I'm not sure how to access fentanyl, which is my preferred method at this point. Plenty of drugs are sold in my city, but I'm not sure how to request a deadly dose of fentanyl or if it's even possible to get fentanyl straight.

 

[Zeir Anpin 729]

I lurked on here for a week or so without an account because I wanted good methods. I heard about Nembutal from Exit International. I called them several times but they are basically shut down and useless at this point. I tried to order Nembutal, but backed out several times. The first time, the seller laced the entire bag with fentanyl. And the second time, the seller was selling it in such small doses that I would need to purchase ten packages at least in order to get a working dosage. But I could not have ten little suspicious baggies arrive separately and clog up my little apartment mailbox with a controlled substance. The risk was too high with that. The guy stole liquid Nembutal from CEVA Logistics and converted it to a powdered form for storage purposes, but each package was the size of key fob and would be shipped individually. I never bought any of it or did anything illegal. I probably shouldn't be talking about it but I only looked and never bid or purchased so I didn't break any rules at all anyway. My advice on the subject of Nembutal is don't waste your time with it. Nobody is selling a good enough product and the chemical has not been made in years, which means that the only version that still exists at all is the powdered form, which is used primarily for druggies to get high from a temporarily induced lack of blood oxygen, something that DMT is more famous for.

 

[Slimprofessional010]

I come here because I feel safe texting with people who feel the same way I do and it makes me feel supported and understood. I really like the community setting and how supportive people are. That might be dumb but that my opinion.

 

[knickknack81]

I originally came here for ideas and recommendations about CTB and various methods but ive stuck around because I feel like their is a sense of community. Of those who are struggling with various issues in their lives and are at the very least considering CTB, or just want a place to talk about things that are related to it. I love the back and forth that comes with like minded people and trying to be there for others when they are need of answers or just some support. Its very therapeutic just to put these feelings out of my head and into to the world, even if I don't know those responding personally.

So for that, I thank all of you for just being there and listening. :)

 

[LetMeSleep4Ever]

Less restrictions for me here. I can express some things that I can't in other places.
Trying to find a method that might work for me.

 

[hottopicpiss]

I flirt with the idea of CTB a lot, at some periods of my life more serious than others. Lately there's been an overwhelming urge that's just gotten more intense as the months go by and I wanted actual answers. See, I have yet to make peace with the idea of dying and not knowing what's going to happen after I'm gone.

Every time I feel a strong urge to just get it over with I find myself reading through the methods offered in this forum, going each one of them and trying to pick which one, when and how. I notice myself grow uneasy and afraid the more I read, then I simply stop.

I guess it's a mixture of morbidity, comfort and curving my urges by accurately fantasizing about my own death.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I made a really good friend here, so I always log in and I check my inbox.

Also I frequent the threads of my chosen method.

And.. I have a bad habit of getting attached to everything, so I'm here at least once a day.

I don't want to sound weird (I'm not a stalker either lol), but I like reading some users' posts, I have learned a lot here.

Wow same, I made friends which keeps me returning to chat... as well as I like both reading and writing to posts.

I also look at the CTB methods to learn more, out of curiousity.