Why do we, as atheists, fear life but accept death

[farawaystar]

Its strange. As an atheist Im not afraid of death. Honestly I see it as peace. An end to everything. Finally.

But life Im afraid of it. The chaos. The feeling that nothing I do really matters. The people around me living on hope that theres a plan a purpose something after death.

I dont have that hope. And I dont have that comfort.

So Im stuck between being afraid of the life Im living and being completely ready for a death I dont even understand.

Is that normal. Does anyone else feel this way. Not that you want to die just that theres nothing left to hold onto.

 

[heiwa2]

As an atheist I also see it as peace but it's just the process of dying itself that makes me scared. Iam also worried about my parents and who will support them in their old age after iam gone. Leaving them behind feels cruel. We have some property, we basically get our rental income from there. If iam gone nobody would be there to inherit the property and it will probably go to my uncles/aunts. Which I don't like because my father worked to buy that, and those people have only shown us bitterness.