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unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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Hi, do you know who will find your body after ctb ? I'd like the cops because i'd like to avoid trauma for my family (with SN the corpse will be blue i think, so even more traumatic). i live alone and i'd like to ctb at home around midnight. only have a cat but he won't give alert... i don't want to go to the hotel. people who work there will be traumatised and it's not their business. just wish i had a deadly illness or a painless accident. so fucking tired. i plan to ctb with SN in september or october if I don't go crazy before
 
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tanshakti

Absurdity of life
Jul 2, 2025
77
Thank you for sharing this, every word you mentioned here is my wish and prayer. its so dreadful to spend this time planning, ruminating until we get there to CTB, its so painful and traumatizing.
 
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Seaghost

Seaghost

Specialist
Apr 14, 2019
387
Depends...the doc who maybe send me to the other side...the police or the graveyars keeper...
 
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LaetumCat

LaetumCat

Member
May 11, 2025
45
Actually hard to say for me. I plan on jumping down from a bridge basically in the middle of nowhere so...I guess a random passerby?
 
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2messdup

2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
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Hi, do you know who will find your body after ctb ? I'd like the cops because i'd like to avoid trauma for my family (with SN the corpse will be blue i think, so even more traumatic). i live alone and i'd like to ctb at home around midnight. only have a cat but he won't give alert... i don't want to go to the hotel. people who work there will be traumatised and it's not their business. just wish i had a deadly illness or a painless accident. so fucking tired. i plan to ctb with SN in september or october if I don't go crazy before
emergency services. 2 different plans but both aim for mental health services crisis team to realise something's wrong and send ems out. Would send delayed email to police but they don't have an email address.
Actually hard to say for me. I plan on jumping down from a bridge basically in the middle of nowhere so...I guess a random passerby?
Harsh/very traumatic for them ;-;. Can't you send a delayed email to emergency services?
 
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Saturn_

Saturn_

You're gonna carry that weight.
Apr 22, 2024
487
Ideally no one :/
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Experienced
Mar 12, 2025
294
I'm sure it will be the police/ EMT / EMS ... I Hope so, don't want to have my parents see me in such a state.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Elementalist
May 10, 2025
810
I want to ctb as far away from civilization as possible
my preferred method is to blow my brains out
animals will eat my corpse
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,047
Maybe first responders or some unfortunate random person, depending on where I CTB. Ideally, I would go to a secluded place to do the final deed and minimize the amount of trauma for the third party. I ultimately just want to end my suffering and find peace and am not going to just let location or other technicalities get in my way.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,705
Everyone has to die somewhere, someday, death is all that's inevitable and anyway this wouldn't be my concern as if I'm dead it means I'll be permanently unconscious which is all I hope for, all will be gone and forgotten in non-existence no matter what, existing is just waiting to die.
 
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StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
275
My sister will, hopefully she won't be as shocked since it will look like I'm just sleeping.
 
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black gem

black gem

New Member
Jul 9, 2025
2
I worry about this a lot. My mum has early/mid stage dementia and lives next door. She would not cope with that. Ideally though I want to ctb in my own flat and spend my last hours with my cats. I can't see that being the place though
 
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mustangharry

mustangharry

New Member
Mar 19, 2025
2
Probably a random hiker
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
455
Recently found this old neglected building with decent anchor points for long suspension hanging. So someone's probably going to be scared shitless when they enter the building.
 
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wham311

Paragon
Mar 1, 2025
989
Recently found this old neglected building with decent anchor points for long suspension hanging. So someone's probably going to be scared shitless when they enter the building.
How'd you go about finding a building like that
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
455
How'd you go about finding a building like that
Walked on a random trail. It isn't exactly hidden, but the door is all rusty, it's pretty messy in the inside with a bunch of random graffiti all over. So if it's going to be where I'm one day doing it, it would be best for me to wait until night time.
 
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wham311

Paragon
Mar 1, 2025
989
somewhere remote if I can, otherwise just somewhere undisturbed at night in town.
I've been looking and it's not easy. Trails get hiked during the day. Only decent places are at night, church lots and I found a couple parking lots that work out. And the trails. Dunno how comfortable sn is with bugs and deer around
 
Polyxo

Polyxo

Ring Ding Dong!
Mar 1, 2025
129
My parents... I really have no choice but to do it at home. They are over protective and they freaked out at me asking for permission to go on a staycation in a hotel 15 min away from the house (I'm 24 and I wasn't even planning to CTB there - in the beginning I did but then I legit just wanted to try and find some a happy moment by myself for once). Now my mom wants me to install a GPS tracker app on my phone for safety (I literally don't go anywhere but work and home). I feel so depressed and guilty thinking about it but there's no other way for me and atp I'm convinced that if anything, they'd be glad I did it at home instead of the outside world where I could've been "among pedophiles and predators."

Y'all think it's enough to just tell them to go play Tetris in my note? LMAOO... (I cry literally every day because I feel so guilty).
 
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