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Freefrompain

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Apr 9, 2025
52
Are you staying or leaving?
 
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StrugglingSienna

StrugglingSienna

Suicidal Trans Girl
Mar 16, 2025
181
Leaving! In October! How about you?
 
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Big_Eal

Big_Eal

Member
Mar 31, 2025
75
leaving , just waiting for the right moment
 
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Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
leaving soon and in vivid colour
 
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

why couldn't it be me?
Feb 3, 2025
515
I'm trapped in a pathetic limbo. My mother asked me to wait and it was a mistake, should've gone with it, but her and my own loose ends keep me here. This shouldn't have happened. I shouldn't be here, trapped between life and death.
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

buttered noodles are yummy
Nov 22, 2024
1,443
leaving - hopefully in september
 
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inverse-weibull

inverse-weibull

Member
Feb 20, 2025
29
Leaving in May
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,194
I wish to leave, I only hope for non-existence and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, to me continuing to exist is just prolonging the suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I find it so terrifying and horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age. Existence to me truly is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful, guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what as all I hope for is to not exist, I just want peace from this existence that was so tragically imposed.
 
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softtodie

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Feb 24, 2025
33
leaving, no time frame yet but I am certain on my decision now
 
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Freefrompain

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Apr 9, 2025
52
I asked my dad to choke me and he refused……..can I choke myself???
 
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Outofoptions1

Member
Feb 22, 2025
83
Truthfully, I don't know.

I've been getting "better" in the sense that my suicidal thoughts are less intense. I even had my first normal day in months on Friday where I didn't have one thought about ctb. However, my underlying issues haven't changed and my "better" moments quickly turn back to suicidal moments so I'm not really better actually.. It's weird.
 
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wkmrn

New Member
Apr 13, 2025
4
I keep thinking about it but I think about how awful it would be for my younger sibling if I am outlived . I don't want him to see me as this" young depressed girl who doesnt know any better abt life" as he reaches his 80's, and I don't want him to feel lonely.
 
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unworthy_

Member
Mar 19, 2021
89
Truthfully, I don't know.

I've been getting "better" in the sense that my suicidal thoughts are less intense. I even had my first normal day in months on Friday where I didn't have one thought about ctb. However, my underlying issues haven't changed and my "better" moments quickly turn back to suicidal moments so I'm not really better actually.. It's weird.
I feel the same. I thought I was getting better in Feb - Mac but I spiraled in the beginning of Apr. Any ounce of positiveness is gone. Aside from working out, I do not have other way out on how I feel, look, growth and future. I don't have the resources to do any of these. I don't have the mental capacity and on top of that, financial to improve my life.

As a 39y female, I am losing my value every day...
 
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Natty*

Natty*

Member
Mar 31, 2025
62
Leaving unless I get a miracle. I'll have my SN soon (already have the benzos and other stuff) and I'm getting my house ready and writing out my final wishes for my family.
 
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DrJ3llyf1sh

PM me for info about SN / KN / ODing
Apr 6, 2025
51
Leaving in 11 days. I've been helping people on this forum with their research and calculations. I want my last days to be helping others. That said, if anyone needs information regarding OD's or inert gasses or even drowning, HMU. The one thing I have no clue about at all is hanging.
 
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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Trapped in a (prison) cell of organic molecules
Mar 25, 2025
245
Leaving. I'm attempting on the Good Friday but will probably fail (hanging). If I fail that, I don't know what to do.
 
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catfriend

catfriend

meow!
Apr 3, 2025
204
leaving in june!
just got my will sorted out. :)
 
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possessed

possessed

Member
Aug 10, 2024
58
Leaving in 11 days. I've been helping people on this forum with their research and calculations. I want my last days to be helping others. That said, if anyone needs information regarding OD's or inert gasses or even drowning, HMU. The one thing I have no clue about at all is hanging.
Hi, thanks for offering help. I want to DM you but I can't. It said that your profile is limiting users to see.........
 
lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

buttered noodles are yummy
Nov 22, 2024
1,443
Hi, thanks for offering help. I want to DM you but I can't. It said that your profile is limiting users to see.........
I second this, @DrJ3llyf1sh it seems your DM's are off.
1744743775208
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
567
Unsure at the moment, but I bought myself decent rope so I can't have the excuse of not having that.
 
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Freefrompain

Member
Apr 9, 2025
52
Hi, thanks for offering help. I want to DM you but I can't. It said that your profile is limiting users to see.........
You're welcome. You can try it now I just turned it on.
 
belowaveragefish

belowaveragefish

YonKaGor Enjoyer
Jan 10, 2025
42
I know I'll leave sometime. I have very little reason to stick around for much longer. I'm honestly surprised I've lasted this long.
 
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other-ghost

other-ghost

rotting
Apr 5, 2025
80
Leaving. I have a few dates im considering, but possibly in Q3 of this year. Could be earlier, but i'm trying to wrap things up first.
 
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Zanmato

Zanmato

Student
Apr 4, 2024
163
I wish I have the courage to leave, that's for sure.
 
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Freefrompain

Member
Apr 9, 2025
52
Thinking about going to the forest preserves.
 
deepsweetdiver

deepsweetdiver

Member
Dec 10, 2024
52
For surely leaving. Don't know when, but I don't know why I keep staying.
 
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Loner

Loner

Member
Jun 16, 2019
83
I will be leaving, but for now, I need to exist for my family, but that is getting harder;-;
 
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