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rhysion

Member
Sep 4, 2022
19
today is between 7-8. hate that i was mistaken into believing things would actually finally get better.
 
Smelly_ballz

Smelly_ballz

No hope in heaven, No fear of hell
Oct 30, 2023
121
9. I really want to do it rn but there are things I should do first. I might say fuck it and do it anyway.
 
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Jase_Carter

Jase_Carter

Member
Oct 5, 2021
8
I'm a steady 5 today which is good. I'm normally hovering between 6 and 7 so I'll take it.
 
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lyles

lyles

Student
Oct 13, 2021
142
7, I am working to keep it from getting higher, but it's rough tonight.
 
blacksand

blacksand

Specialist
May 2, 2023
361
I have a loaded handgun held to my head about once a week, and am 50/50 on doing it. That has to be near 10 although death still scares the absolute crap out of me so I can see myself procrastinating indefinitely.
 
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rustinpeacepolaris

Student
Apr 28, 2023
170
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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9 righ now
 
UnwillingSavior

UnwillingSavior

Mr. Self Destruct
Nov 2, 2023
115
7-8, I already have everything I need but I keep fluctuating in my desire to ctb. If nothing changes for a few months in terms of my mental state I will progress straight to 9 and then 10.
 
兎の耳

兎の耳

The ghost of a girl who never lived.
Aug 3, 2023
148
I'm consistently at an 8 lately. I don't try to fight it anymore. I don't think I want to.
 
BlockHammer

BlockHammer

Losing My Religion
Oct 25, 2023
294
It depends, usually when im im a default mode(nothing great or worse happened in my day) my scale is in 4, when i gathering with my friend at some place and we talk about the thing in the past or some goffy shit, my scale is in 3. But when there's some fucked up shit happened like being remove from job recruitment process or else, my scale can go up to 5 or 6
 
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subhumandeathnic

New Member
Nov 4, 2023
1
Generally at a 6, sometimes go up to an 8. One day I'll get to a 9 and 10
 
passivethought121

passivethought121

Specialist
Jun 11, 2023
323
7. I'm usually at an 8, but the majority of the day was at a 6, until I finished work.
 
adriandri

adriandri

almost ghost
Nov 27, 2023
6
i'm at a 7.5 i think, all of today. i don't know exactly where 'planning but in a more long-term, to be ready way' falls? last night was a nine, and on good days i'm closer to a 5.5; distraction 24/7 from the yawning depths has always been the name of the game!
 
justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

<3
Nov 9, 2023
417
Mostly I am at 6, but at random I go to 8 or 9. 10 doesn't happen now since I dont have any real methods.
 
Sammie_com.sanrio

Sammie_com.sanrio

Stuck here
Apr 7, 2023
167
I've been 10 for the past two years and I'm surprised I'm still alive. It's been 359 attempts
 
Grav

Grav

Elementalist
Jul 26, 2020
879
Normally around 5-6 but holding steady around 5 for the last week. About every 3 months I go up to 8-9.
 
DaSh

DaSh

The devil always smiles when you need a friend...
Nov 26, 2023
72
9 although I'm allergic to cat's :)
 
Wyldfyre4948

Wyldfyre4948

Waiting for my bus
Jul 12, 2023
377
I love how adorable this is. Nothing like making such a dark thing kinda cute. Today feels like an 8, but I will bounce around from 6-9 depending on the day. Haven't had a 10 for quite awhile.
 
LifeTransit_1

LifeTransit_1

Death is inevitable. I just want mine early.
Oct 25, 2023
110
Between a 6-8 everyday... people tend to make it a 9 sometimes...
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,236
currently I'm 4-5 although I should be 9-10 given the fact that I'd have a perfect chance to end my misery these days. But I'm not doing it not even trying to do. IDK why ....
 
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Orange Cat

Student
Oct 19, 2023
142
I am at a 9. I have everything that I need. Now I just need the courage to go through with it .
 
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beboleaf

Member
Nov 15, 2023
8
i'm at a nine today, most days it ranges from 7-9
 

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