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asymptoteofidealism

asymptoteofidealism

it's not even time until it was
Apr 20, 2026
16
between 6 and 7, depending on the day
 
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celestialchaos8192

Just a very tired person
Apr 23, 2026
1
Hmm i am drifting between 7 and 8, but all i need is just another bad day to go all the way to 10
 
mikidagreen

mikidagreen

dismal enjoyer
Apr 14, 2026
37
have been at an 8 for 3 months now. im tired.
 
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pinapellicer

Member
Mar 15, 2026
48
Do you guys still plan when you are 5-7, or do you just actively work on your plan and carrying it out at 8-9?
 
SpencerSees

SpencerSees

I want to swim until my arms give out 🍀
Feb 22, 2023
159
Between 7-8.
 
OtterFromTheCosmos

OtterFromTheCosmos

Overthinking Otter Boy
Mar 19, 2026
25
I honestly think I am at 9 at worst
 
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AnonymousCat1

Apr 17, 2026
131
9 but feeling pretty calm about it right this second. the main thing i have left in terms of preparation is the letter to my family (big task, i admit, but everything else is pretty much ready to go)
 
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charlavail

charlavail

trying to figure out the point
Mar 19, 2026
154
My "good days"/baseline is like 5-6. Today I feel like an 7-8. trying not to SH is really hard rn, and so is acting on other impulses. I was just writing in my journal and ended up writing more suicide notes.
 
Afterglow

Afterglow

chronically online loser (good at geoguessr tho)
Feb 22, 2025
384
7 on a good day, 9 on a bad day, 10 once before and hopefully soon again.
 
SoverignDreamer97

SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
157
Dunno... but the world has until June 19th to repent before I divide myself from it.

 
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PanaxMan

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2023
412
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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10 and not like I have other people to help me unless something changes I will be dead
 
Mint Floss

Mint Floss

Member
Dec 11, 2025
49
Usually bounce between 6 and 8, never lower, but rarely higher
 
Daisy88_99

Daisy88_99

Never Enough
Apr 22, 2026
86
I been 8-9 for a while, already have a note and making a plan but this has been going on for years. So idk if it counts. If there was a button that could kill me instantly, I would press it without hesitation and I would for years. The ONLY thing stopping me is the lack of PAINLESS methods available.
 
fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
544
None of these apply to me. I dont want to talk to anyone, call anyone, ot get help; i am not yet 10.
 
lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,526
3
 
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Spongiform

Member
Apr 21, 2026
9
9

Just bought 3 foxglove plants from the nursery. need to trim the leaves and stuff then dry them out for a few days, then weigh them and see if I need more or not.
 

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