Wow... I can relate so much.
My parents when i was younger.
"Talk to use we wont judge just listen.
Blah blah blah.
When i talked and watered down to the point the deink is just water with a tea spoon of wiskey XD
Still act shocked, suprised, etc etc and never kept a word of their first statement....
Did judge, stare, get upset and play the victim card.... Yea you read that right.
They played the victim card....
"What you do hurts us" ......
Wow ok....
Im hurting you....
By being isolated. Un heard, un seen.. In my room alone not bothering anyone....
Anyway that was my little story when i was young :P
Ps... I did get hospitalised when i was little. Not related to self harm or anything of that sort.
Umm...
Whe i was in middle school i bit a teacher lol
Some jid punched me in my face and ran away to the hall way.
Naturally i chased him and teachet blocked the room exit with her hand.
I said "move or ill kake you move"
Well she didnt move and i kept my word.
I pushed her and she didnt move so i bit that hand and chased that kid.
I lost the fight.... Lol but hey no free punches to the face for me....
That was middle school and i was suspended and hospitalized in a mental hpspital XD by my parents bevayse they where "Recommended" by the schoool....
Not forced, but recomended..... So could of said no....
Anyway im going off topic.
Sorry.
Can't stress enough how much I relate. "You can talk to me. I would rather know how you feel than worry because I don't know!" No, you do not want to hear my unfiltered thoughts and emotions. Even when I water it down my friends still get really weirded out and stressed. It's sort of dehumanizing and alienating that I can't talk to anyone about my feelings without their only reaction to that being "go to a psych ward". Hell no. I just want to be treated like a normal person with some issues. Not like an unfixable ticking time bomb. That's why I never really vent anymore. Learned my lesson the hard way. I hope therapy isn't the same if I ever get access to that.