Discussion When Is Suicide Right/Prophylactic? 𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ 🫧

[Cicis.Doing.Unwell7]

☆ ──꒰ (𝑪 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈...)

I am reasoning this out—trying to figure it out for myself right now.

My own perspective:
I was emotionally neglected and, both as a child and as a teenager, sexual abuse.
I have suicidal thoughts since I was eleven years old, and my parents hurt and harmed me for what felt like an eternity, in every conceivable way.

The only thing I have is myself—and, at times, the will to live. But even that is only a 50/50 proposition.
I have virtually no clarity on whether I truly want to live or not.

I have found acceptance within society and in my professional life; Work, Living situation, money, friends, holidays.
It feels to me I have already "played through" life, traumas and all. Sometimes it feels like nothing can take me down anymore... but then it does.

When I was sexually abused, I tried to end my life and survived it. Which makes me think, I can survive anything. Even though, deep down, my soul feels dead.

I find myself wondering—despite having endured this for so long, and despite still contemplating ways to take my own life even today—whether this is the "right" path to take... simply because I am suffering so profoundly.

I do have goals; I wanna be a good nurse and I wanna marry one day - but there is this gut feeling. I am terrified that everything I have been through will happen all over again. I have CPTSD, and I cannot imagine that nothing else severe will ever happen in my life...

I just do not know it any different. So would a Suicide Be Prophylactic for further suffering?

☆ ── 𝑩𝒚𝒆; 𝑪! ꒱

 

[Al_stargate]

Hmm, trying to understand. You want to know if suicide will be final end and no more suffering? From my spiritual belief (if you even believe in anything like that) probably not. I think there is probably karmic burden to suicide. Unless you have absolutely no other option, I would avoid it. But what do I know.

 

[Cicis.Doing.Unwell7]

Hmm, trying to understand. You want to know if suicide will be final end and no more suffering? From my spiritual belief (if you even believe in anything like that) probably not. I think there is probably karmic burden to suicide. Unless you have absolutely no other option, I would avoid it. But what do I know.

Thanks Al my Love -
I do think there is no negative Karma tho when you die.

My question was -
To prevent more suffering, do I need to die. Thats just the question.

 

[Al_stargate]

Thanks Al my Love -
I do think there is no negative Karma tho when you die.

My question was -
To prevent more suffering, do I need to die. Thats just the question.

Suffering is baked into life, can't escape it. Everyone suffers to some degree. There isn't a person or organism on this planet that doesn't experience some level of suffering, physical, mental, or even spiritual. In life you can only try to minimize it. Physical suffering can be helped with money and access to healthcare, mental by looking after yourself and having good mindset, and spiritual by living meaningfull and well intended life. Some suffering is inevitable though. You have to hope there is light at the end of the tunel. And it's kinda entitled to expect life to be easy. You can try to offset it by doing stuff you like. Life doesn't just offer you lemons, it offers you sweet good things as well. Lemon seed will extract all the bitterness from the ground but mango seed will extract sweetness. They grow from the same soil. That is metaphor for outlook and mindset. Lot of mental stuff gets better when you get older. Brain matures. You won't be same forever. What bothered me in my early 20s, I wouldn't even give it a thought today. Don't assume you will always have same mindframe or feel same about things. You get stronger in life. You have to be. Life is a battle. Gotta be willing to put up a fight. In nature everything that is weak has to die, it's just a fact of life. In life you will get scarred, injured, messed up, everyone does. You not the only one. No need to feel bad. You still alive and kicking. If you survive you get another attempt. There is no pride in life. Life is too hard to have pride, you become easy target for the devil. Anyway, sorry for this long rant. Hope I provided some clarity to you.