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When do you plan on catching the bus?

  • In the next six months

    Votes: 48 58.5%
  • In the next year

    Votes: 18 22.0%
  • In the next two years

    Votes: 7 8.5%
  • In the next 3 years

    Votes: 6 7.3%
  • In the next 4 years

    Votes: 0 0.0%
  • In the next 5+ years

    Votes: 8 9.8%

  • Total voters
    82
Liebestod

Liebestod

Suicide Enthusiast
Mar 15, 2025
508
When do you plan on catching the bus?
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,224
Tonight if I had the guts.
 
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5_5

5_5

~ :¨·.·¨: ₊˚
Jun 15, 2025
44
im such a pussy
 
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littlecutecorpse

littlecutecorpse

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ absolute girlfailure ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
Nov 13, 2025
171
early january. still need to have my plans sorted out so now's not the time. (also it'd be a new year by that point, hence why i voted 'within the next year' as well lol)
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
260
hopefully i'll be gone by the end of the month.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,110
I have no clue maybe impulsively
 
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peewee

Experienced
Oct 16, 2025
269
end if the month
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,067
More than anything I wish I could have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence ever again and I always suffer so much from how that is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

I just want to peacefully cease existing, it truly is the most horrific, dreadful world where suicide is seen as a crime where I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from the burden of existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always find it so torturous to exist.
 
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Dark Mood

Member
Oct 3, 2025
72
I hope to catch it in early 2026, or even still this year
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Dead inside
Nov 1, 2025
195
Probably once my mom dies of old age in the next 30-40 years or so. I don't plan to live much longer once she passes.
There is a chance of my plans failing/being found out while she is still alive, so I'd rather not risk it.
 
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deadmanwalking1990

deadmanwalking1990

Student
Nov 16, 2025
129
early january. still need to have my plans sorted out so now's not the time. (also it'd be a new year by that point, hence why i voted 'within the next year' as well lol)
You are 18? 😭 I hate this fucking world where young people like you have to suffer,atleast im 35 not exactly a young mf,maybe young to die,but fuck it
 
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Mooncry

Mooncry

✦ 𝓕𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼 𝓒𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓼 ✦
Sep 11, 2024
348
By the end of December at the absolute latest. I cannot start another year, I just can't.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
622
I plan on ctb in 2026 or 2027.
My meto and SN coincidentally both have an expiry date of 2029, so I have plenty of time. I will wait until my chronic pain gets worse and I will end it. For now I will live the best I could, spending my life savings rapidly.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,225
I'll be gone by the end of this month. The day couldn't come fast enough at the same time I'm an anxious wreck.
 
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Wishingforadream

Wishingforadream

Shine Bright
Sep 28, 2025
39
Maybe early or middle of February.

Just need to sort out my plan and slowly get supplemental drugs.
 
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Marbas

Marbas

Misery Loves Company
Feb 20, 2025
96
Within the next six months hopefully
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
418
Whenever I stop being a coward lol.

Everything is set up, I only need to get over my SI.
 
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SaintJosifStalin

SaintJosifStalin

-
Nov 17, 2025
44
Dude honestly I have experienced suicidal ideation since I was like ten, I'll probably never hang myself but I daydream about it constantly.
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Suicide Enthusiast
Mar 15, 2025
508
I plan on ctb in 2026 or 2027.
My meto and SN coincidentally both have an expiry date of 2029, so I have plenty of time. I will wait until my chronic pain gets worse and I will end it. For now I will live the best I could, spending my life savings rapidly.
Same for me either the end 2026 or the end of 2027. I haven't decided yet.
 
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qewpie

qewpie

bedbound, bouncing, broken
Aug 3, 2025
160
thankfully i'm recovering from chronic illness to the point where i don't feel like shit all the time, even though it's still torturous, so now i wait for my dog to die in 4+ years. in the meantime i'll be trying to establish a working CO or inert gas method
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,458
I feel like I caught the bus alteady. I simply give up. Death is just a technicality.

I see a lot of people calling themselves cowards. Not so. SI is a fact of life.
 
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Yonlux

Yonlux

Smaller than a grain of salt at deep of sea
Jul 19, 2024
176
Probably low than 2 months in max
 
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orca1717

Member
Nov 12, 2025
9
Middle of January is my planned time. Should give just enough time to settle all my business and have everything sorted for the few people I care for.
 
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TheUncommon

This person is not breathing.
May 19, 2021
190
Six years ago.
 
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Ashes of a Dreamer

Ashes of a Dreamer

Looking for freedom out of this hell
Dec 29, 2024
161
This week, but, if it doesn't work, until the end of 2025. No way I'll be here next year o.O
 
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carrotzilla

Member
Apr 5, 2021
10
I'm awaiting confirmation for something that may or may not happen next May-June. If it fails, then I'm 99% going to CTB. I'm tired and can't do this anymore.
 
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alixisbonez

alixisbonez

Member
Nov 15, 2025
29
My birthday February 25th
 
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Persona3

Persona3

Member
Nov 17, 2025
61
I need options first before I can even think about when. I need to get smarter first
 
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