Method what’s your method and why?

[EmptyBottle]

Exactly - that's why water is almost useless in an actually serious fire. If your clothes are also thoroughly soaked separately before you actually wear them, that's even worse. Resinous wood is also extremely difficult to put out, it's like a candle.


I don't think they're bad, they're just not for me. Because the majority are painless and quick, and they don't permanently disfigure and destroy the body. It's ironic because I have access to everything that would be needed for the other methods - SN is easy to obtain where I am, I have an opiate source, helium/CO is easy to get, hanging I've already tried (and is easy to execute), but they don't respond to my needs.


Totally understandable reasons!

:3

For permanent destruction, I did searches yesterday for "hand grenade" to see what SaSu thinks... and it was a little tricky to get outside of Brazil and similar. There were both interesting, and irrelevant search results to wade thru.

As for my earlier post about preferred method, If I had enough $, and was able to drive to a rural, hard-to-reach area... could unleash a few nitrogen cylinders in the car at night (when car temp wouldn't rise, and probably enough time for the cylinders to do their job).

 

[Exhausted546]

I'm not sure where to search but is there a rope thickness I should be looking for for hangings?

 

[martyrdom]

:3

For permanent destruction, I did searches yesterday for "hand grenade" to see what SaSu thinks... and it was a little tricky to get outside of Brazil and similar. There were both interesting, and irrelevant search results to wade thru.

As for my earlier post about preferred method, If I had enough $, and was able to drive to a rural, hard-to-reach area... could unleash a few nitrogen cylinders in the car at night (when car temp wouldn't rise, and probably enough time for the cylinders to do their job).

Some homemade explosives are quite easy to make. I'm not posting how though. And it's also dangerous to try at home, obviously.

That sounds like a great method if money would allow it, yeah.

 

[Shiitake]

i'll start, mine is jumping from a 17th floor balcony onto concrete ground. i don't want a peaceful nonchalant death cuz im crazy and the thought of dying in a raw and gruesome way is comforting. of course i don't wanna just stab myself and bleed out and suffer so jumping will do. also its pretty effective. any jump above the 10th floor is pretty much guaranteed death.

i think you could also feel peace knowing you did something not many humans did, truly fly

Sledgehammer to my pelvis followed by self-immolation with kerosene and some plastic + resinous wood as kindling in a bathtub.

based

 

[1mm0lat3]

I've chosen CO. It seems peaceful to just have a drink and fade into eternal sleep if done properly, though I could handle the headaches and other symptoms if that should happen.

 

[BradGuy123]

headshot because it is a safe method and quick

If I ever have to CTB this is a viable option for me since I live in the USA and it's very easy to get a gun in my state. I wouldn't know exactly where on my head to aim. I'd be afraid that I would hit part of the brain that would not be fatal right away and I would endure excruciating pain for a long time before I passed. Do you have any knowledge of how to make a headshot work instantly?

 

[evergreen_forest]

probably figure out how to attach a nitrogen cylinder to a mask or bag of some sort, wrap myself in my heated blanket, and think about a loving god

 

[tamamori]

i can relate to wanting a gruesome death (or rather one that will destroy my body, specifically), so i was thinking rail or jumping. rail is much more easily accessible to me and sounds nicer but would end up troubling other people way more than jumping would so i don't know for sure yet but probably one of those two.

 

[woodlandcreature]

hanging unless i get my hands on something else
i've also considered jumping (almost did once if it weren't for being found)

 

[Hime]

I've always considered strong opioids, but I'm really afraid of falling into a deeper hole if I mess something up... Going out with the best high of your life sounds wonderful, but if you fail... Addiction.

 

[gayboy300]

i'll start, mine is jumping from a 17th floor balcony onto concrete ground. i don't want a peaceful nonchalant death cuz im crazy and the thought of dying in a raw and gruesome way is comforting. of course i don't wanna just stab myself and bleed out and suffer so jumping will do. also its pretty effective. any jump above the 10th floor is pretty much guaranteed death.

SN because I don't want a painful death and have access to the supplementary drugs needed

edit: Also, I used to like doing drugs but I don't do them anymore because they derail my life more than I'm comfortable with. One last night with alprazolam seems like a nice tribute in ny head.

 

[FinalesFunkeln]

I have been looking into euthanisation. There is a country that will do it for severe and chronic mental illness. I check pretty much every box to be a candidate, and you don't need to be a citizen to get it done.

If for some reason I get denied, I'd go for gun. I do not have a gun because I have had delusions of harming others, so I have considered going to a shooting range where they supply one for you. I decided against it because that would be traumatic for the person with me. Luckily, I live in the land of the free and the home of the brave, so if I make the final decision, I can buy a gun with ease. I figure this will also give me time to be sure of my decision before I commit, as there are background checks and such. I won't go into further detail, but I have thoroughly thought out what I'll do should I not find relief from my ailments.

 

[coolbeansniner55]

Helium exitbag, for me personally was the easiest to get supplies for and even think about doing

 

[herecomesthepain]

helium/CO is easy to get, hanging I've already tried (and is easy to execute)...

I'm envious of you. Pure helium is not easy to get for me, I don't have access to a car, and I tried partial hanging time after time last year, failed each time.

Can you elaborate on the easiness of getting pure helium?

 

[Naz667]

Self-immolation is always talked about how painful it is, so I think it could be an unique experience to die with. I mean yea, gonna be painful as hell, but like if I stop because of the pain, I probably didn't want to CTB anyway

 

[camusfan_ig]

Hanging, but unfortunately I don't have anything reliable to hang myself with lol A hoodie is the best thing I got rn

 

[shylady222]

If/when I do it my method is Carbon Monoxide because it's easy and painless

 

[DarkJason]

Shotgun blast to the head. Probably the best method imo. I would have done it by now if I could just get my hands on some ammo.

 

[m1ll1pede]

i'll start, mine is jumping from a 17th floor balcony onto concrete ground. i don't want a peaceful nonchalant death cuz im crazy and the thought of dying in a raw and gruesome way is comforting. of course i don't wanna just stab myself and bleed out and suffer so jumping will do. also its pretty effective. any jump above the 10th floor is pretty much guaranteed death.

if i lived in a city i'd jump, ill probably hang myself

 

[martyrdom]

I'm envious of you. Pure helium is not easy to get for me, I don't have access to a car, and I tried partial hanging time after time last year, failed each time.

Can you elaborate on the easiness of getting pure helium?

Where I am, regulations for stuff like this are far less strict, it would not be that difficult to get purer grade helium from sites directed to chemists etc. Balloon grade is still over 98% pure so I dont think it matters too much though. As for hanging, I'm not going to give any advice but it's really easy to execute if you do it right, the only reason I failed was because I was saved by others.

 

[Akathisa Torture]

I have considered going over my mums 19th floor balcony bc I know it would def work but that's so traumatic for my mum, daughter and anyone else that lives in that building.

So I'm considering taking at least 50mg Ativan and just under 2 box's of clonidine. I have phenergan to hopefully help stop me throw up. I'm just scared it won't work and I survive with more permanent damage. I'm already so damage.

 

[Tormented Soul]

ive been looking to a helium exit bag over the head.

seems like a painless way to go.

Helium exitbag, for me personally was the easiest to get supplies for and even think about doing

im tryin to find the right tank and hose to possibly do this method but not sure where to order from. im in the US.

 

[Carryline]

i'll start, mine is jumping from a 17th floor balcony onto concrete ground. i don't want a peaceful nonchalant death cuz im crazy and the thought of dying in a raw and gruesome way is comforting. of course i don't wanna just stab myself and bleed out and suffer so jumping will do. also its pretty effective. any jump above the 10th floor is pretty much guaranteed death.

jumping i wish to do SN but i cannot find it anywhere... i tried hanging, partial and so on but nothing works

 

[madameviolette]

I have considered going over my mums 19th floor balcony bc I know it would def work but that's so traumatic for my mum, daughter and anyone else that lives in that building.

So I'm considering taking at least 50mg Ativan and just under 2 box's of clonidine. I have phenergan to hopefully help stop me throw up. I'm just scared it won't work and I survive with more permanent damage. I'm already so damage.

Oh hi Akathisia friend. Is that the reason you want to ctb ?

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

ive been looking to a helium exit bag over the head.

seems like a painless way to go.

im tryin to find the right tank and hose to possibly do this method but not sure where to order from. im in the US.

I just googled "pure nitrogen gas near me" and I called the first place on the list. I asked if they had 40cf tanks of pure nitrogen, and they said they could have one ready for me in a week.

 

[android]

It doesn't. I was a firefighter, I know how to mitigate the risks.


You cannot wash down the flames with just water from the bathtub, it's impossible after a certain point, and if you are well-doused in the kerosene, you go up in flames instantaneously as does your kindling. The blood loss + shock from my pulverized pelvis would also be lethal without immediate medical attention (and even then, a hemicorporectomy would be necessary which has a high lethality rate). I'm very familiar with other methods and I don't like any of them.

Does being a firefighter have something to do with the desire for self immolation?

 

[martyrdom]

Does being a firefighter have something to do with the desire for self immolation?

Other than having seen how destructive and effective fire is, I don't think so. I just want my body to be totally destroyed and disfigured and I want the pain to be blinding and all-consuming.

 

[android]

Other than having seen how destructive and effective fire is, I don't think so. I just want my body to be totally destroyed and disfigured and I want the pain to be blinding and all-consuming.

I sent you a private chat conversation if you are open to it.