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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Experienced
May 7, 2025
232
Mine is that I'll get so low that I'll have no choice other than to CTB
No matter how messy and inconvenient to others
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
134
getting my life together
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Elementalist
May 10, 2025
844
that death is not the end but the beginning of something even worse
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,497
fear is of unending constant unbearable pain : this can only happen while i am alive . Non-existence forever is the only guarantee of that never happening . so permanent non-existence is the only perfection. eternal non-existence is the ultimate perfection .

After Death is non-existence forever.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,973
Abandonment and people that I rely on for happiness leaving me as if I don't have them that means I suffer more greatly and I am of less worth now as I must have done something wrong or hurt the other person.
 
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Aziz354

Member
Sep 20, 2024
10
My fear is to fail a CTB attempt.
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
144
That death is not the end.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,770
I fear suffering way more for way longer in the future, I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much they can be tortured just to die in agony from old age.

To me existence truly is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I'd just never wish for the dreadful, futile burden of existence, to me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake and for me only non-existence is positive. I just want to never suffer again with this existence finally all forgotten about, for me existence itself is the true problem and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity, I always find it so dreadful and painful to suffer in this existence.
 
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Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,362
That everyone will turn on me, abuse me and emotionally, physically and medically neglect me like in a certain other place I've been...

I tell ya, trauma never leaves you, no matter how "safe" you are in your life.
 
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Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
258
Suffering my entire life while not CTBing but living for a really long time. My entire life has been suffering for the most part and I really don't want to keep this on for another 60-80 years or so.....
Another big one is getting into an accident, getting some disease or failing CTBing and becoming a vegetable unable to do much beyond staring into a wall or similar.
 
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dayhell

dayhell

Member
Jul 6, 2025
16
Never having the balls to actually ctb and suffering through this life like the coward I've always been.
 
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Raven2

Raven2

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2022
465
Getting elderly. Illnesses, various medications for health problems, lack of mobility, decline in cognitive functions.... no thanks.
Im a heavy smoker so likely I'll get some form of cancer from it unless I ctb before that.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
143
Mine is that I'll get so low that I'll have no choice other than to CTB
No matter how messy and inconvenient to others
That my bf leaves me.
 
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kitkat9234

Experienced
Nov 27, 2024
281
Fear of failing another attempt. Fear of what happens after death. Fear that it will be worse.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
465
Any of my family members dying.
 
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fireplace19

fireplace19

What’s the use of burning red hot?
Feb 7, 2021
23
my ex moving on while I suffer here for eternity. life is more painful than death. thinking about doing what im doing now for decades is absolutely terrifying.
 
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Sergeant45

Sergeant45

Student
Jun 11, 2025
103
Failing to ctb, more or less the failure, but rather the consequences.

It'd be my worst nightmare coming true if I landed in a mental hospital, or in an even more physically ill state. Then I could likely never decide to die on my own ever again.
 
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Fall_Apart

Fall_Apart

Student
May 22, 2023
124
The fear of being born again.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
621
Death
Being alone
People hating me
Myself
 
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Grog

Grog

Be good to yourself.
Jun 3, 2025
248
I fear dying alone the most. Sometimes, I think I'm unloveable. But, I'm trying to not think like that anymore~
 
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playalistic

playalistic

RIP BRIS
Jul 5, 2025
11
My greatest fear is not having closure / not being in control / being in a perpetual state of Non progression
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Member
Jul 12, 2025
65
I'm not really afraid of much. I don't want to hurt anyone else, that's my fear.
 
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Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
472
What I fear most is this "life" 😢
 
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indigoor

Member
Jul 6, 2025
5
Mine would to be "heal" without actually being healed, building the life I always wanted and still being sad. I'd hate to ctb and leave behind children and a husband
 
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star.trip

star.trip

Student
Oct 6, 2024
188
My biggest fear' s that I will fail CTB, that they'll put me in a mental institution and that I'll have lost the ability to try again.
I have always been afraid all my life. I'm a coward
 
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istherehope

istherehope

Member
Jul 8, 2025
34
The things I already lived
 
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fallingbehind

fallingbehind

Member
Mar 22, 2025
19
Not having enough courage and suffering until i get old, slaving away at a job I wont be good at for the rest of my miserable fucking life.
 
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22yearsbroken

22yearsbroken

Lost in the dark... with no sign of light
Feb 15, 2025
371
My estranged daughter never knowing how much i love her.. and that ive been absent.. not because of me but because of her mum who she looks up too.. but will never know that her mum thought it wasnt my child .. cos she was cheating how can i destriy that relationship.. just for me ..she doesnt know me why break up family ..that should of been mine
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,253
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RadiantNumber

RadiantNumber

Experienced
Mar 2, 2024
245
Knowing that I would be living, while my future is doomed
 
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