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Guy0117

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Apr 6, 2025
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Fentanyl Zeniva 50MCG patches, chewed orally, under the tongue sucked in etc, did all of this last year on a different account also called Guy with a series of numbers. Did it one day on impulse. Tried two until just plastic remained still chewing to die whilst tripping intensely, but well, made it, didn't die. I'm not very easy to kill, has been a staple of my life.

I'll be using minimum four. Too many and I think it'd just become an awful experience.

I got advice to soak them in DMSO before, and I was going to buy alcohol to be drunk during. Might do that.


Anyways last time I was dying, I updated what was going on here - I don't know if I'll do all that this time. Don't need a goodbye thread or anything but hell maybe when I do go I can say farewell to you guys, share a moment. Don't know any of you but souls and whatnot.



Can't wait to be honest. Good mood and feelings about it, very positive. Looking forward to it. I'll document anything relevant. Have a good one.
 
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FuneralCry

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I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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How long have you been on them? Maybe you've worked up a very high tolerance?

Not sure I'm doing the math correctly, but a single patch that releases 50 mcg over a 72 hour period should contain 3600 mcg of fentanyl. Is that correct? So, 4 patches should contain 14,400 mcg? 14,400 mcg is equivalent to 14.4 mg, an amount that far exceeds reported lethality dosage for most people of just a few mg. Sounds to me like a pretty sure death. Good luck and peace to you.
 
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Guy0117

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Apr 6, 2025
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Sigh have been through a crazy week. But I'm out of here soon. Just checking to see how much fentanyl I have this time
172mcg / hr total. So not quite 200 [I could get another 50 to be sure] but close enough. Chewed at once this should stop me for sure. Three 50 patches, two 12mcg / hr.
 
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Guy0117

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Apr 6, 2025
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Can you imagine how much nicer everything will be when there's just silence? I'm not here anymore. No more noise, interruptions, people being sick of me -- just nothing interrupting them. I think that's what we hate - our noise. Or interrupting the peace of others.
 
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yomander369

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How was the fentanyl high? Was it scary while happening? How close were you to dying?
 
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Guy0117

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Apr 6, 2025
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Last time? A mental decision away from death. Willed myself alive, doctors can't explain, etc. Won't make the same mistake twice.
Just organizing some stuff to dispose off before I'm good to go. Good mood :]
 
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Guy0117

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Apr 6, 2025
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Today I should be chewing 200+. I'll update the thread on my attempt. Don't hear back from me, I'm deceased. Nothing too complex, not a cry for help - just that simple.
How was the fentanyl high? Was it scary while happening? How close were you to dying?
I realize my answer was vague. I've answered it plenty of times so just tired, but I detailed how it went under another account called Guy something. Basically - everything feels like a waterfall, you can't stand, speak, or navigate your directions [walking will be like you never even learned or your brain is struggling to remember] your grip on life becomes extremely loose, and you can 'let go' at any moment. It's a little scary at first - then you just accept it's happening and don't care.
Life flashing before your eyes does happen, in the sense of everything up to that moment in time reflected on. You also get a strong urge to remain alive on account of unfinished business -- 'No wait, I can't', panic etc, but you get past that with acceptance and you just wait to die.
 
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