Venting What's the worst that you have ever experienced ?

[MrCasella]

For myself it was being homeless.

 

[Forever Sleep]

That must have been awful OP, I'm so sorry. I hope your situation is better now.

The single worst moment was my Dad telling me my Nana had died. My Mum died when I was 3 so, it was also my last major link to her.

Cumulatively though, it was growing up with a (suspected) narcissist. Being constantly fearful of what they would do next. Doing everything I could to avoid them. They were the reason I first considered suicide- age 10 seeing as death seemed more preferable.

 

[whywere]

I have so many that I can choose from, I guess for me is the day after my18th birthday and having my "parents" drive me to town, I was raised on a working dairy farm and dropped off on a street curb with no money. no food, no shelter, no job, nothing and watch them drive away and never hear from them again ever, 100% their choice.

They also poisoned the minds of my older brother and younger sister against me and I have not heard from either since 1990.

For anyone who ever has been homeless my heart breaks into millions of pieces for that person and I always wish the very best for that person to be able to get a roof over their heads and 3 square meals a day.

Walter

 

[Namelesa]

school or break ups. School was stressful, boring, repetitive torture for long spans of time with the fear of teachers being angry or disappointed in me. Break ups feel so awful to me as I get attached to people easily and rely on them for my main source of happiness to its devastating when I lose them especially as I feel like something is wrong with me and I failed them in some way for them to leave me so I am of less worth now.

 

[dingokettle3531]

Surgeries, been through too many, they've all been awful, none of them helped me in any way and all they did was cause immense pain and suffering

 

[WhiteRabbit]

My chronic pain starting.

 

[whywere]

My chronic pain starting.

I too have 24/7 chronic pain and my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you.

We are in this together and lots of love and the knowledge that you are never alone.

Walter

 

[CatLvr]

I'm gonna say it's having parents who cared for me as much as Walter's cared for him. I was simply a means to an end -- taking care of all my brothers and sisters (I was the oldest of more than a few -- 8 total) my narcissistic mother and her enabling husband (my father) had, while also being the maid, and office help after school, Saturdays, Sundays and holidays and summer "vacation" for my father.

Then, due to more than a few beatings growing up -- because kids should know EVERYTHING without being taught, right?? -- having chronic pain issues from those injuries. But, because both my parents were medical professionals, everyone believed all the stories about my "mental issues" and "hypochondria" and "attention seeking behaviors".

 

[Rust]

My father using me for tax evasion. I now owe the government an amount that I cannot pay back. This is my current predicament.

Also a stage in my life where I was partially an illegal immigrant (funny because now I'd be fully legal in said country - but I'm not going back). Couldn't work, drive, get healthcare or anything. I was also too honest (or stupid) to use the various legal loopholes that existed.

Thankfully I've never had to endure homelessness. That's a pretty big fear of mine. My condolences to anyone who has had to experience that.

 

[KillingPain267]

Divorce. I know, it's stupid, but I put so much value on the marriage and the partner that them leaving me basically gave me brain damage. Now suicide is permanently etched into my thinking patterns. There's ne'er a problem that doesn't lead to thinking suicide is the answer.

 

[easypeasy]

Surgeries, been through too many, they've all been awful, none of them helped me in any way and all they did was cause immense pain and suffering

This is identical to my situation. A series of medically negligent procedures has left me in pain every moment day and night and totally isolated and sadly bullied by my own family because I think they want me gone all together. I can't make myself small enough for them. Wankers.

 

[Yume Nikki]

Breakups for me. I feel lonely all the time as if something is missing from my life and even with distractions the isolation does not go away. I talk to people online and it does help but it's not the same and usually only brings temporary relief. I also don't have any close or best friends so I am essentially a stranger to everyone in this world.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Having it all ...and losing everything . And through that its made me ill to the point of now being long term terminall.. suck how one moment in life can shape your future ..some times for the good ..some times for the bad ..

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

Family destruction and betrayal after denial (to the point of calling the cops) of an older family male member sexually assaulting their adult caretaker, who he was also the parent of. That person that was sexually assaulted is a parent too. They are my Mom. Then... being locked out of our house two weeks later. Then.. the other two relatives (esp one of them) manipulating my grandpa who had early signs of dementia and everyone else in my family into turning their backs on my mother and me.

I will never trust people again. This was almost 8 years ago.

But still I want to get better. But I have no emotional or mental reserves left. I still want to try.

 

[milkteacrown]

I've been abused all my life, and for a while, I just existed as a living toy for other people to sexually take advantage of. It's hard for me to remember any times I've not been experiencing the worst.
Also, I'm very sorry to hear about your homelessness. I hope you have access to stable housing now.

 

[Rose Mine]

When my cousin sexually assualted me twice as a kid and when my boyfriend did later on while I was just trying to dogsit and hang out with him and then continued to do so later on by pressuring me until I gave up or not listening to safe words. It stopped though. Also this wasn't my experience but it effected my life a shit ton, when my sister got imprisoned for child abuse and it was a felony and so fucking bad, she is back in my life because of my mom and idk what happened because there was a man involved and she got out on bond through a womens DV orginization. Also when my brother got kidnapped/ran away and was only found because the mans mother ratted him out.

 

[Unrecognizable7]

When I got my first panic attack at 16 and my mom who I always took care of emotionally said "why dont we just both jump off a bridge"

 

[MrCasella]

I have so many that I can choose from, I guess for me is the day after my18th birthday and having my "parents" drive me to town, I was raised on a working dairy farm and dropped off on a street curb with no money. no food, no shelter, no job, nothing and watch them drive away and never hear from them again ever, 100% their choice.

They also poisoned the minds of my older brother and younger sister against me and I have not heard from either since 1990.

For anyone who ever has been homeless my heart breaks into millions of pieces for that person and I always wish the very best for that person to be able to get a roof over their heads and 3 square meals a day.

Walter

Sorry that your parents did that what a pair of useless scumbags.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

It's complicated. Someone tried to help me but ultimately found listening to me to be too painful so they had to leave me alone.

 

[Halfhourdays]

Homeless in Seattle, WA. Like an endless nightmare.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

The death of my mother.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

Growing up, the frequent beatings from my dad, and occasionally from my mom. I've been molested, jumped, and had a gun to my face, but those moments kinda just slid right off. Having the people who brought you to life turn around and abuse you because you're not being a good little drone fucked me up on a different level.

 

[RinneOfAragon]

When I got my first panic attack at 16 and my mom who I always took care of emotionally said "why dont we just both jump off a bridge"

wow, that's crazy my dad said something similar to me at 17.

 

[Lost Magic]

Watching my mother and best friend die in hospital from cancer.

 

[Unrecognizable7]

wow, that's crazy my dad said something similar to me at 17.

Im so sorry

 

[Paizen]

It's complicated. Someone tried to help me but ultimately found listening to me to be too painful so they had to leave me alone.

This is mine... I don't even know what to point to. Probably not the worst thing (I think the worst thing was getting shown my elementary school bully's genitals while on shrooms) but last Fall I was fired from my dream job because a 40-year-old sexually harassed me every day, spanked me and told me he was gonna take a piss on my face, and then when I showed the recording of him talking about the golden shower he wanted to give me, I stayed on the phone with WSIB for 7 MONTHS while they "investigated", gaslit me and told me that I wanted it and then never gave me any benefit for harassment even when I gave multiple pieces of evidence that were more than fulfilling to harassment and abuse but not enough for a "mental stress injury"... honestly they need to take harassment off their list of shit you can report because by this particular individual I was the most harassed person I've ever heard of, by a landslide

 

[whywere]

This is mine... I don't even know what to point to. Probably not the worst thing (I think the worst thing was getting shown my elementary school bully's genitals while on shrooms) but last Fall I was fired from my dream job because a 40-year-old sexually harassed me every day, spanked me and told me he was gonna take a piss on my face, and then when I showed the recording of him talking about the golden shower he wanted to give me, I stayed on the phone with WSIB for 7 MONTHS while they "investigated", gaslit me and told me that I wanted it and then never gave me any benefit for harassment even when I gave multiple pieces of evidence that were more than fulfilling to harassment and abuse but not enough for a "mental stress injury"... honestly they need to take harassment off their list of shit you can report because by this particular individual I was the most harassed person I've ever heard of, by a landslide

WHAT THE HEAVENS!!

You are such a fantastic person and have absolutely crappy weirdos assault you and the folks "in charge" read: police and folks in power read: up the food chain did NOTHING???!!

I will say this much, being 69 and seeing so much in all those years, I 100% believe in Karma and they WILL get their "just desserts". I have had so much garbage done to me and those that did all of that REALLY got it back down the road of life. Be it in their professional or private life, it DID happen and the bite of past being slimy and crappy bite them HARD.

You are such a precious, loving and caring spirit!

You are a good friend and family member to/for me and lots of hugs and well wishes to you.

Walter

 

[Tumblewillow]

On paper I've had objectively worse things happen, but..

When I was doing my GCSEs my mums drinking got worse. She was a very violent alcoholic but worse for her was just not leaving bed. A lot of times I'd be late for exams because I couldn't wake her up. The house fell into disrepair, it was like a hoarders house, filled with trash and feral cats. Piss and shit all behind the cupboards. I was too depressed, ashamed, shy and autistic to ask for help so I just ate stale bread and biscuits. A lot of times I thought I'd come home to find her dead.

My last day of school she was unresponsive but I was so numb I just went, I wanted to say goodbye to people. Even though I had very little friends I cried during the last photo, and on the way home with my friends. My friends were talking about how their parents were taking them out to eat to celebrate and things like that.

I got home, she was breathing but still unresponsive. I cleared the trash off the sofa and just sat in the silence with my dog, just ugly crying. No celebration. No happy hugs. Just silence.
I've never felt so alone and worthless.

Over 12 years later its just never gone away. Even being beaten and neglected by her didn't hurt as much. I think because that's when I learned that my life does not hold as much value as other people's.

Thank you for letting me share <3

 

[yxmux]

i'm not sure tbh. it doesn't really feel like i've experienced a lot and am unable to say the "worst thing" but at the same time it feels like i've experienced enough. there wasn't really anything that i would truly say was that bad, at least to the point of having to deal with a lot of trauma.

 

[darksouls]

when I was a child my mother tortured me with the method of nearly drowning me in the bathtub
my childhood was sad and lonely
I never had any human friends in my life