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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
129
If you're not ready to die yet, what's the reason?

Mine is my best friend. I can't do this to her.
 
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other-ghost

other-ghost

rotting
Apr 5, 2025
75
Clinging to that small hope that everything will get better (although I've been saying this for years— it didn't). And people around me.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
Family and friends. It would be selfish to inflict such pain upon them.
 
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maneose

maneose

天天天国地獄国
Sep 10, 2023
141
i don't have any suitable means to do it quick, methods with ingestion scare me because what if i regret it but can't do anything to stop it?
but also the idea something might give me a sign to live, i cling to hope that someone or something might save me.
 
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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
I'd say my incompetence to plan and execute my preferred method on a timely matter, I should've left about a week ago, life really sucks
 
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SufferingInDenmark

Wizard
Feb 21, 2025
620
probably my family and gf. and the fact that SN is so hard to buy now without any bullshit "welfare check" or whatever they call it
 
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Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
519
fear of the CTB and ending up worse.
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,099
I'm afraid of it not working out and me being injured. This is the only reason right now.
 
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3ngel

3ngel

princess
Nov 26, 2024
67
afraid to fail my attempt
 
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areyousafe??

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
467
Guilt.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,906
Although it'd be better if I was already dead and objectively I wouldn't miss anything special if I died today I don't wanna die.

I'm not really happy with my current situation but it's also not that bad and still too good to just off myself.

Then there's the grief family is gonna have to go through bc they wouldn't understand the reasons. There's also the fear of failure and ending as a veggie.
 
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PrismHon

PrismHon

Member
Mar 24, 2025
78
Don't have antiemetics yet.
 
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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Trapped in a (prison) cell of organic molecules
Mar 25, 2025
245
The space in between. It's all so lukewarm. I don't feel anything – not happy but no suicidal either. Nothing sparks my interest but nothing makes me particularly desperate either.
 
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music

music

i'll scatter like birds
Feb 1, 2023
101
a kind of naive hope that my now long-distance relationship will see fruition through in-person validation and affection. maybe then i could function as a human

i say naive because i see people in similar positions—mentally, too—to my own and they never end prettily. maybe this is self-fulfilling. i don't fucking know
 
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Subhumano

Subhumano

I dont have friends
Apr 20, 2025
176
My mother would be sad
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
529
1. Afraid of failure and getting much worse.
2. Guilt to family.
3. Lack of courage, procrastination.
 
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rabidbunny

rabidbunny

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Apr 16, 2025
30
besides the fact that i dont have the supplies, i think the way id hurt the people i left behind. im also terrified about afterlife possibilities. what if its worse? what if im reborn? id hate that because im really hoping theres no more consciousness or afterlife. the uncertainty is too much sometimes.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,735
Fear of becoming a vegetable from a failed attempt
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
394
Survival Instincts
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
Nintendo Switch 2
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,993
I only continue to suffer as I'm so cruelly denied the option to just peacefully free myself from this torturous, futile existence I personally always saw as such a terrible mistake and never exist ever again, it's just so incredibly cruel to me how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and for me non-existence really is all that's positive and desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten, more than anything I just wish this existence was never imposed, I'd never wish for the suffering of existing.
 
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Saturn_

Saturn_

You're gonna carry that weight.
Apr 22, 2024
485
Not having a gun.
 
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IhatethislifeXD

IhatethislifeXD

New Member
Apr 10, 2025
4
I am fraid of surviving the attempt and find myself in a much worse situation that I am in. And I am also terrified by the physical pain that I would feel during the attempt
 
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worthless123

Hikikomori
Apr 24, 2023
53
I have my method I just keep putting it off because I'm terrified of the experience of dying.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Warlock
Apr 21, 2025
761
I don't know what the afterlife consequences are. That simple.
 
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BRAINWORMS

BRAINWORMS

dust to dust
Jul 20, 2020
151
My loved ones. Also, the fear of failure and fear my loved ones would abandon me if I failed and survived.
 
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softtodie

Member
Feb 24, 2025
19
also hanging on to the small bit of hope something changes, weary about all the welfare checks going on right now so I am too nervous to buy from a source. Plus my loved loves of course.
 
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lucyanne

Student
Apr 9, 2025
125
I'm ready, I'm just waiting until after her birthday but fuck me it's dragging!!
 
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GeoLavender23

Member
Feb 12, 2023
23
If you're not ready to die yet, what's the reason?

Mine is my best friend. I can't do this to her.
Afraid to do it and how to do it properly.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Warlock
Mar 15, 2025
732
Waiting for my adult kids to finally become completely self-sufficient.
 
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