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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
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Mentally, what year are you still stuck in? What period of time seems like it was just yesterday to you, when really it was ages ago?

For me, I think it's probably the end of 2022. That's when things stopped moving, stopped growing. When I became "fixed", sterile. When my philosophical beliefs went from a frenetic, boiling, molten cauldron of disparate ideas to a hardened caulk. Case in point, the other day, I was looking up when the Queen died, and was shocked to discover that it was in September 2022, because to me it feels like that just happened yesterday...
 
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xaxs

xaxs

Member
Dec 4, 2025
8
2021 tbh. nothing "significant" has happened to me (excluding one relationship i had), i'm pretty much flawed the same way i was back then. it's saddening that i need external "assistance" like a girlfriend to function like a normal human. otherwise i'm in crumbles
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
448
It's interesting because there are a few years and time periods I feel like I am stuck in and constantly reminiscing over, mostly from 2016-2023, but I'd say I'm most stuck in 2018 - probably because my life peaked in that year, I would say. I was still depressed and facing struggles at that time, but I can definitely say I felt way more "alive" back then compared to now. Now I'm just a husk, completely dead inside and waiting for it all to end.
 
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whiskeyblanket

whiskeyblanket

weird chicken lady
Jan 23, 2025
71
2003.
 
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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Mage
May 7, 2025
586
1978 - 1983 šŸ˜„
 
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shaggy_dooo

shaggy_dooo

My cozy place
Jan 26, 2026
57
Real shit im stuck in the 90s and i wasnt even born yet šŸ–¤
 
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3spiral

3spiral

ā­’ ׅ ♪ ’’
Apr 22, 2026
85
24 I guess
 
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Imausername

Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
87
September 2nd 7am 2025
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,144
Honestly 2020. I know it was the worst year for a lot of people, but for me it was probably the best year of my life. As an introvert, I was thrilled to hear the government say I was not allowed to go interact with anyone else. I worked from home and had a second job, so I was pulling in tons of money (although I was also deep in debt). I did not have to go see my family over the holidays. I spent the year streaming and playing Cyberpunk.

My brain clings to 2020 as that was the last time where I felt pretty good.
 
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eladeselasol99

eladeselasol99

trapped
Mar 3, 2026
24
2019.
 
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ben_

ben_

i ben therefore i am
Oct 31, 2023
107
i don't want to say. i don't even know because i don't want to think about it. gonna just shove this question somewhere where it's not seen by anybody....

okay, next question, Mr. Therapist....
 
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LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
396
2020
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Elementalist
Dec 24, 2025
889
basically 2014/15 and any other year that i was alive before that
 
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X-sanguinate86

Specialist
Sep 26, 2025
349
The year my first wife left me and I failed in my career at the same time. And that was a long time ago.

There were mini stops and starts before and since but that was the pivot where things went from still possible with an active, usually interested mind to idling in neutral like a mindless, disaffected zombie devoid of inspirations or aspirations.
 
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ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Member
May 5, 2026
30
For me it's 2022 as well, in fall of that year was when they started the holocaust against my loved ones, against the only true family I've ever had, who were nutrias. I tried everything to save them but failed, I even got in legal trouble because the thing that murdered them accused me of having "threatened" it - when all I had was a self-defense flashlight while the thing had a firearm that it had used to murder the nutrias.
My life ended back then. I'm still existing, but not living. It's been three and a half years, and I know this is nothing I could possibly recover from. I only want to go where they are and to be reunited with them. The only thing that keeps me going are some few survivors I keep visiting.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

ā€œI’ve been digging my own grave for yearsā€
May 21, 2025
536
2024 (specifically the last few months of 2024)
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

ęƒ³ę­»äøčƒ½ - ęƒ³ę“»äøčƒ½
Nov 23, 2020
1,878
For me, it's also gotta be 2021/2022. I was still in university, and it was the first time in my life I actually had friends. Suddenly, time seemed to speed up a lot. Graduation was suddenly sooner than I thought. Some people started to drift away, or make plans to move. But if you were sitting around drinking with friends, it felt like the night would go on forever, until suddenly it didn't anymore. In many ways, I'm still frozen in time in those days.

All the songs that were popular in 2022, shows, memes, etc feel just like yesterday to me. It's hard to believe that time is gone forever, and that it's been 4 years now. I would honestly do anything to go back to those days. Or to 2006, playing Pokemon emerald for the first time, eating dinner with my grandparents on a Sunday afternoon, all the colours in the world still so bright and everything still feeling new and magical to me. I feel like as time passes, colours, sounds, sensations, etc feels a lot more muted.

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