Help What things are keeping you alive?

[Lovecraft's Lover]

To me...
My cats. Their names are : Mechitas, Pelusa and Minina (all of them are fem cats)
My board games. I love playing them with "friends" (quotation marks because they're all for the gaming, barely for something else)
A very insubstantial/weak sense of "hope" that something special can happen in my life (a sense that is diminishing day by day)

That's it for me.

What things are keeping you alive?
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PS: this is my first post here (altough I opened my account around a moth ago). I need to talk. Don't know where else to go...

 

[iamnotadinosaur:(]

My best friend. We both care about each other so much, I'm afraid of hurting him either due to my death or because I can't help him when I'm dead (crazy that). He's everything good about my life and makes it a little bit more living-worthy and I want so badly to be there for him as he is for me.

 

[LongLimbedWeirdo]

To me...
My cats. Their names are : Mechitas, Pelusa and Minina (all of them are fem cats)
My board games. I love playing them with "friends" (quotation marks because they're all for the gaming, barely for something else)
A very insubstantial/weak sense of "hope" that something special can happen in my life (a sense that is diminishing day by day)

That's it for me.

What things are keeping you alive?
_ _ _ _
PS: this is my first post here (altough I opened my account around a moth ago). I need to talk. Don't know where else to go...

This is a interesting question I could just say everything but it's honestly how I think I think really objectively about almost everything so that might be it

 

[AltF4Mylife]

Stranger things season 5

 

[Macedonian1987]

My parents - They are the only thing that keep me alive. I have literally nothing and no one to live for. I'm tired of everything and everyone. I'm even tired of my parents too. But I postpone my ctb because each additional day I stay alive is one less day of them suffering because of my death.

 

[hopemeetshopeless]

My physical inability to override my body's natural resistance and survival instinct. I already have the shotgun and shells. Been suicidal my whole life. No friends or family, no reason at all to live. It's simply just pulling the trigger for me at this point which is harder to just do than I ever imagined. All I want is to not be alive but actually taking it by your own hand takes a courage that non suicidal people may never understand.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

My partner and survival instincts. I have no other reasons that keep me alive.

 

[Lovecraft's Lover]

Thank you all for sharing

Some of you have parents and/or a partner... that means something. I just have my cats, my sister, a pair of cousins and some not very close friends (guess that means something too, but at the end of the day it doesn't feel enough to me cause I feel very lonely).

People commenting about the body's survival instinct are so on point!

Strangely, the same force that keeps us alive is the same force that allow us to do terrible things to others, as we're capable of doing a lot of damage in order to survive.

PS: I see that the last repplies in this thread are from Nov 9 (that day was my 49th birthday).
I just wanted to share this with you.

 

[hmnow]

To be honest nothing. Just the lack of energy to do it

 

[kitkat9234]

Fear of failure. Fear of the dying process with SN. What happens after if I'm successful. How my daughter will be affected even though she wants nothing to do with me anymore. SI is a bitch.

 

[blooming]

Right now family and a few close friends that I have. I am finding myself losing the energy to continue though more and more each day. I also don't have a reliable method so that steers me away too. Music is another thing that keeps me going.

 

[Chemi]

I guess i am just lazy and procrastinating it. ctb sounds so stressful and exhausting right now, imma rather just take a nap

 

[lv-nii]

My online/irl friends <3

 

[panhandle5363]

I lack the energy to do anything at the moment, and I still need to gather all the supplies first. Also, Puella Magi Madoka Magica -Walpurgisnacht Rising- will release in February 2026. I've waited for 10+ years to watch it.

 

[StoicPizza]

What's keeping me alive is i keep failing CTB and I eat once every 24 hours

 

[Dr.Duck]

The fear of how the people in my life will be affected. I don't want anyone to feel like me that I know. There amazing people it's not fair that I curse them with the misfortune of being my friend. I just want to lose them sometimes.