What makes you want to Live?

[You]

What is the thing that makes you want yo stay alive for another day? What do want to see?

 

[xBrialesana]

I try so hard. I've done the things. Honestly I'm hurting so bad right now that's all of the vocabulary I can expel but I hope you're night is ok

 

[TAW122]

Partly SI (which goes without saying). But really, I have some things left to do and also right now isn't the right opening/opportunity for me to CTB. I am going to get stuff in order and sorted out first, before following through with it. In my heart and rational mind, I do know that CTB would be my ultimate freedom from all the injustices, unfairness, bullshit, and suffering from day to day life.

 

[S1mpleme]

I hoped whole my life that I will meet someone and finally get family, but I lost that hope, nothing keeps me to want this life. I don't know, only if some miracle.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I have very trivial events coming up which I want to see but I'm not sure if I'll make it.
I have a music festival called Download in June, and I'm supposed to be seeing Jimmy Carr in October.
It's only 9 months away, and I still don't see myself being alive for it, but I want to be at the same time.

 

[randomz]

Most of all SI and also the rare days in which I can distract myself from what a complete faiure I am.

 

[gentleflower]

Right now its graduation. Showing to myself I am stronger than this damn academic title
And my family. My mother bluntly told me that I should just kill her before I kill myself as it would be the same outcome to her

 

[BadRNG]

Right now its graduation. Showing to myself I am stronger than this damn academic title
And my family. My mother bluntly told me that I should just kill her before I kill myself as it would be the same outcome to her

My mom also says she would kill herself right after I do, even tho I don't think she will , she's just scaring me away from suicide

 

[yetme]

fear and hope

 

[gentleflower]

My mom also says she would kill herself right after I do, even tho I don't think she will , she's just scaring me away from suicide

I have gotten extremely scared by her saying that as well. I was convinced that she wouldn't care. I am not sure if she just said so to hold me off though. I hate how BDP makes me distrust everyone..

 

[BadRNG]

What is the thing that makes you want yo stay alive for another day? What do want to see?

I have gotten extremely scared by her saying that as well. I was convinced that she wouldn't care. I am not sure if she just said so to hold me off though. I hate how BDP makes me distrust everyone..

oh no in my case she cares, she's a reason I am having second thoughts and not why I scared to suicide. She tried to help me but I am just a mess , I can't change reality and the thought of me living like this is scary...

 

[goomsoom]

oh no in my case she cares, she's a reason I am having second thoughts and not why I scared to suicide. She tried to help me but I am just a mess , I can't change reality and the thought of me living like this is scary...

this is exactly my reason, but I have to get over it.

 

[SnowWhite]

My dad bluntly told me last week, "I couldn't live with myself if I ever felt like I failed you." My dad is the one person in my family that has done everything he could. He accepted me without even flinching when I opened up. He's gotten into shouting matches with my mum for being unsupportive. He's never missed a day of work because he can't afford to.

It may not be keeping me from CTB, but damn, I know I'll be thinking of him as I go.

 

[MsMaudlin]

I still have things to do.

I have done the letters for my friends, just need to do the family ones.

I need to write down passwords, phone numbers etc.

I need to get some cash to put in the letters.

I need to list valuable things I have for family to sell.

 

[Inferdan]

My friends. Whenever I do something for them, I feel useful, like i have a purpose. That's slipping from me slowly, but I'm still fighting until it stops or takes me away.

 

[HelensNepenthe]

There are a couple of factors:

1.) My dog who I adore dearly. He has brought so much love, although he doesn't replace human touch.

2.) My happiness depends on others -- yet I can't have a positive relationship. My first relationship was abusive. My second relationship that ended in October was with a girl who I thought was the one, yet she suddenly dipped after finding someone. I'm really shattered growing up in an emotional abusive house. Some of that lingers on me still. I'm holding to find that person but I don't think it's going to happen. A lot of people don't really relate to mental health and find it really difficult.

3.) I'm afraid of SN failure.

 

[Inferdan]

I hoped whole my life that I will meet someone and finally get family, but I lost that hope, nothing keeps me to want this life. I don't know, only if some miracle.

Something I always tell people is to be yourself. Let others see who you are, and those who will accept you will make that known. When with a person you like, I understand to hide certain things, but don't mold your personality into something else. Show them what you have to offer, and you will get there. Some people get it early, others late, but it is always nice when it happens.

Just something that I tell my friends who worry about the same thing, hope you find this useful too .

 

[Kneel]

I guess at this point it's my pets, they're the only responsibility I have left.
My oldest buddy has been in a really bad shape lately and I just want to be there for them until the end. I will probably end up letting the younger ones go to someone who can provide them the life that they deserve, so that I can go in peace and without worries.

 

[R_N]

Just SI. I shouldn't be alive, it's torture.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I don't want to live . Just haven't killed myself because of Fear. What I fear is the medical people "saving" me from my suicide attempt and leaving me in a brain damaged state but still alive.

 

[Cutepoison]

Fear of failing to ctb, so I'm doing all the research i can to ensure i don't get saved.

 

[Empty Smile]

What is the thing that makes you want yo stay alive for another day? What do want to see?

To see how many more people I can piss off before I go.

 

[MrOptions]

Emotional and financial commitments to my family. That is the only thing keeping me here.

 

[BigBoiSlipKnot]

Currently not much. Basically nandos and the lack of supplies to end it all.