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What is your wish for 2026?

  • Die

    Votes: 202 71.4%
  • Other

    Votes: 81 28.6%

  • Total voters
    283
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
Others votes?
 
lemonandcapers

lemonandcapers

I Wanna End Me (she/her)
Jun 7, 2025
109
I want someone to take me out. On a date? With a gun? Surprise me
 
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spiders.in.my.head

spiders.in.my.head

chronically stupid
Dec 21, 2025
80
if things continue the way they are, i hope to die.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Student
Jan 11, 2026
162
I do not want to CTB right now but everything is getting worse so I wouldn't mind.
 
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SmigSauer

SmigSauer

Member
Feb 18, 2026
15
I would like to have no fear when interacting with people. I have many reasons as to why I want to die, but irrational fear of everything social is the most prominent reason. I am sick of living in fear of nothing.
 
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nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
191
I want to be able to live. And no, I don't mean being alive by surviving all the pain and challenges, but to actually thrive and feel that life is indeed worth the living. However, so far, this lives as a mere concept in my brain. I do hope that live can be better, but realistically, I don't see myself being alive until the end of the year.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
Je voudrais n'avoir aucune peur au contact des autres. J'ai de nombreuses raisons de vouloir mourir, mais la peur irrationnelle de toute interaction sociale est la principale. J'en ai assez de vivre sans peur.
I have also social anxiety disorder
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
SummerTrip

SummerTrip

aiygiwgwyaiydiwdwy
Feb 23, 2026
59
For it to be the last year my body takes a breath…
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
My ultimate goal is still death, even though I've been less suicidal for the past two weeks. But it will come back... every time I feel better, life slaps me in the face with its painful consequences. However, the terror of abandonment, when I am abandoned or think I am, is awful to live with.
 
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InTheAbyss

Student
Jul 30, 2024
116
I'm a little late to this thread. But my goal is to get approved for euthanasia and get it done. That's the best for me. If not then ctb and be done with it.
 

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