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onthelastday

onthelastday

I died long before i met you.
Apr 16, 2021
109
I've been planning my death for a long time, but the lack of an effective method and without much pain prevents me, my depressed state leaves me without the strength for anything, I really want to die, I don't like this SHIT existence at all, I I NEED to kill myself soon, what is your method? I need it
 
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DetachedDreamer97

DetachedDreamer97

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2018
1,402
So far I have Bearshaek (my prototype self-destruct mechanism), 2M2B + Loperamide combo, SN, Cerberin Cocktail, and Yew Tincture.

The yew is my ideal method, but I only have the prototype, which isn't enough to do it's job. So, I guess for now, my best shot is Cerberin. That isn't to say I'm giving up on making the extract however.

I'm not gonna make tell you what's best for you as with all my methods, it takes a great level of knowledge and research. And I'm pretty much suited for this kind of method.

Check out the resources and decide which os right for you. Each of us have a style and a particular level of skills. And with whatever you lack but want to obtain that method, level up. Moneymaxx, alchemymaxx, drugmaxx, gunmaxx, etc.
 
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Foreversad

Foreversad

(D)uck prolifers
Jun 21, 2021
413
Like a list of those and my last back up plan is something to get anesthetized and hang myself
 
Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
Full suspension hanging
 
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IWantToSleep

Experienced
Dec 27, 2020
227
I'll either go with SN or N.
 
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FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
1,919
I won't kill myself at home because I don't want my family and especially my teenage sister to see my body. I plan to do it in the forest or a large park in evening time. I plan to kill myself at 30.

My methods

1) Overdose with nytol sleeping pills and my grandmother's pain medication ( codeine) and other pills I have taken a same combination of both nytol and my grandmother medicine. It does make me feel really drowsy and I can feel my body shut down. I plan to stock pile a LOT of medication I plan to reach over 150 pills

2) Carbon monoxide in a tent

3) drinking a poison
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,619
Ive considered numerous ideas...... But I feel the best and safest with a gun to my head, Booom... Im Done. I Hope and Pray..
 
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ReadyForIt

Member
Jun 10, 2021
42
Ive considered numerous ideas...... But I feel the best and safest with a gun to my head, Booom... Im Done. I Hope and Pray..
Do you plan on going intraoral, behind the ear, or somewhere else? I'm worried that a headshot alone won't kill me, so I'm thinking of going for the femoral artery, the heart, or both before hopefully sealing the deal with a headshot.
 
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filthyrottendirty

Experienced
Feb 20, 2021
222
Firearm
 
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HelloAllYouPeople

Member
Jul 6, 2021
65
I have my exercise rope ready for a really bad day. Partial hanging, I already found where to compress.

But if things are getting better I want to save up for a S&W and shoot myself with a .357. I want to at least have the thrill of lying to a therapist and getting a Firearms License
 
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LostSoul1609

LostSoul1609

Experienced
Mar 9, 2021
245
Unfortunately SN was banned here in Italy so I'll just jump under a train as it seems the most effective method
 
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noxin

Member
Jun 26, 2021
42
It's getting harder to source SN to Aus but I'm gonna try my damnedest to get my hands on some.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
Air choke (botched hanging) with a rope that's too elastic, carotid slashing with relatively dull knife, jumping from balloon, alcohol blackout in tub with improvised weights or weighted vest, shallow water blackout in lake.

If I somehow manage to hold down a job I'll go for shotgun to head. N and SN are too much of a hassle for me at this point, but may become options if I somehow leave the basedment.

In summary: very unlikely to ctb during the next three years.
 
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primavera1956

Member
Jun 22, 2021
31
Non mi ucciderò a casa perché non voglio che la mia famiglia e soprattutto mia sorella adolescente vedano il mio corpo. Ho intenzione di farlo nella foresta o in un grande parco di sera. Ho intenzione di uccidermi a 30 anni.

I miei metodi

1) Overdose di sonniferi a base di nytol e antidolorifici di mia nonna (codeina) e altre pillole Ho preso una stessa combinazione di nytol e la medicina di mia nonna. Mi fa sentire davvero assonnato e posso sentire il mio corpo spegnersi. Ho intenzione di accumulare un sacco di farmaci Ho intenzione di raggiungere più di 150 pillole

2) Monossido di carbonio in tenda

3) bere un veleno
Ma 150 pillole sono la dose giusta? Sicuro? Ti sei aggiornato?
Sfortunatamente SN è stato bandito qui in Italia quindi mi limiterò a saltare sotto un treno perché sembra il metodo più efficace
Che orrore! sono italiana anch'io. Ma non conosci altri posti sicuri dove trovare SN?
Sta diventando più difficile fornire SN ad Aus, ma farò del mio meglio per mettere le mani su alcuni.
Vorrei saper dove trovare SN. In Italia non lo vendono se non con documenti e partita iva.
 
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LostSoul1609

LostSoul1609

Experienced
Mar 9, 2021
245
Ma 150 pillole sono la dose giusta? Sicuro? Ti sei aggiornato?

Che orrore! sono italiana anch'io. Ma non conosci altri posti sicuri dove trovare SN?

Vorrei saper dove trovare SN. In Italia non lo vendono se non con documenti e partita iva.
Difficile, nom conosco altri posti dove prenderlo onestamente.
 
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Deleted member 8579

Enlightened
Apr 28, 2021
1,323
jumping from balloon
This sounds really nice. Why haven't I thought of that? Let yourself drift until you're far out on the ocean, then jump down with a weighted vest.
My new dream method.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,619
I haven't thought Too much about it because I will most likely use a 12 or even a 20ga. I know I could still fail possibly... But fairly confident I will be Done after that.
 
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Sslsh

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
293
Sn in a hotel far away from home
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,329
Ideally I would like to do SN, but it is more likely I would go for hanging. It has always been the method I have considered.
 
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Desperdición

Member
Jun 24, 2021
40
Sometimes I think about holding a knife pointed at the heart and hammering it using my weight and momentum against the wall or the floor. But more than likely I will end up doing something less painful, like jumping from the highest place I can find, with weights tied to the upper torso to shift the center of gravity to make sure I land of head.
 
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queenofwasps

Member
Mar 23, 2026
7
Ive considered numerous ideas...... But I feel the best and safest with a gun to my head, Booom... Im Done. I Hope and Pray..
Same! I only lack the gun 😢 thought it was easy to buy on dark web turns out they're all scams. Now I don't really know what to do
 
StoneCactus

StoneCactus

Member
Mar 15, 2026
69
Amygdalin plus almonds and Vitamin C to make it more effective. Not the most pleasant end, but it's the only one I can reasonably think possible for me. I can't get a gun because of my psychiatric history. I can't figure out a good excuse for someone with the word "apartment" in their address to want a nitrogen tank. I'm 6'5" which is too tall for full suspension hanging in places I have access to; I don't trust partial to work and I don't want to be hospitalized when people see my bruise after an attempt. Both ratchet strangulation from Five Last Acts and night-night have failed. While there are plenty of very high cliffs in my area I have a terrible fear of heights. My apartment has a carbon monoxide detector. I don't have the connections to score fentanyl. And I'm too stupid to solve the SN riddles.
 
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bugs_for_brains

we love you so much
Mar 4, 2024
100
im ngl overdose is looking like my only option im thinking lots of oxy, benzos, alcohol and probably a few zopiclone and dph pills and whatever other depressants I can find and manage to down. I know supposedly its not a good choice but i cant get sn, hanging is difficult and would be even harder now bc I have my dog in here with me 24/7 and I cant hang myself while he watches. other than that I dont rlly see any better options
 
Liebestod

Liebestod

Death is near
Mar 15, 2025
687
I'm gonna take sleeping pills drink alcohol breathe in air from a non oxygen air duster and take a bath and drown and burn charcoal in the bathroom and die of both drowning and carbon monoxide poisoning.
 

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