What is your biggest regret?

[PI3.14]

Not seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist when I was a kid, not that my parents knew about trauma nor did they know I had ADHD, so I don't blame them for not taking me to see a doctor.

Well, my life went downhill due to my mental health and I don't think there is a chance of fixing things in a manner that will bring me happiness and fulfillment, giving treatment a chance again but I'm not holding my breath.

 

[calebzz1]

Im sorry to hear that you went through such a tough situation. i hope you were able to find a safe space afterwards for you and your children

goodness youve been through alot. Im so sorry all that happened to you. the medical system sounds so fucked up. I really wish you the best

Thank you, it's easily the hardest medical condition I have dealt with in my adult life for sure.

At the end of the day, my condition is curable but the path to doing so is murky at best which is why I'm going the second route.

I'm currently trying to get disability benefits which will open up a lot of doors and benefit my household more.

 

[badatparties]

wait what happened?

There was this story of a young cop who got Lasik eye surgery so he didn't have to wear glasses on the job. The complications were so bad that he killed himself. People should think twice before getting an elective surgery.

 

[Feldsparc]

Getting into an affair with my close relative. I have bpd and he does too and it became a huge trauma bond. I lost my family identity and respect because of this massive mistake

 

[ngdt2567]

not having told some people many things while they were still alive

Moving to my current city. It's where I was arrested and spent time in prison and a psych ward. I'd love to go back in time and move anywhere else. Even before the arrest nothing good happened to me here and I made some bad decisions too but this city that was once my dream is now my prison, and soon to be my grave.

Gosh. so sorry to hear this. I certainly can relate to the feeling of wishing you could go back and make a different choice.

 

[medinjured521]

Taking medication, especially off label for sleep. It destroyed my life in ways that are unimaginable.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

Life

 

[endboss]

benzos every day

 

[Henry Avery's]

not living my life, got paralyzed on indecision, prime years wasted doing nothing. gg

 

[RadiantNumber]

That I was born at all

 

[thousandislandstare]

I feel like I didn't effectively utilize the opportunity the pandemic shutdown provided me with

 

[HarleyQuinn]

my biggest regret is that i didn't kill myself sooner.

 

[ilovenewyork]

Not taking the opportunity to have kids. Missed by such a close margin

 

[endboss]

Taking medication, especially off label for sleep. It destroyed my life in ways that are unimaginable.

i am sorry this happened to you, too. what did it do to you? i was given a small dose of clonazepam and it helped me with tinnitus for half a year, after that tolerance withdrawal set in, resulting in constantly worsening tinnitus. i tried to taper it like they do in the ashton protocol, but tinnitus exploded and i wasn't even half way through the taper. doctor reinstated whole dose again - i didn't know back then that this was the dumbest thing you can do, anyway.. endet up in a hospital. they told me must be imagining things, it can't be the benzos on a dose that small.. meanwhile tinnitus kept on worsening and added hyperacusis, life totally destroyed.. gone through hell every day for 2 1/2 years now, but non of the fighting matters.. its getting worse every day and it is crushing me.. i can't do/enjoy anything anymore, i can't even take a fucking walk outside, now i am here. thanks for reading

 

[medinjured521]

i am sorry this happened to you, too. what did it do to you? i was given a small dose of clonazepam and it helped me with tinnitus for half a year, after that tolerance withdrawal set in, resulting in constantly worsening tinnitus. i tried to taper it like they do in the ashton protocol, but tinnitus exploded and i wasn't even half way through the taper. doctor reinstated whole dose again - i didn't know back then that this was the dumbest thing you can do, anyway.. endet up in a hospital. they told me must be imagining things, it can't be the benzos on a dose that small.. meanwhile tinnitus kept on worsening and added hyperacusis, life totally destroyed.. gone through hell every day for 2 1/2 years now, but non of the fighting matters.. its getting worse every day and it is crushing me.. i can't do/enjoy anything anymore, i can't even take a fucking walk outside, now i am here. thanks for reading

Destroyed my ability to enjoy anything in life, robbing me of the ability to feel happiness, joy, pleasure, sadness, love etc. Caused muscle wasting and severe strength loss, severe sexual dysfunction, cognitive decline, sleep issues. I'm a robot without a life now. I too can't enjoy anything and the thought of my life continuing like this is unbearable.

 

[endboss]

Destroyed my ability to enjoy anything in life, robbing me of the ability to feel happiness, joy, pleasure, sadness, love etc. Caused muscle wasting and severe strength loss, severe sexual dysfunction, cognitive decline, sleep issues. I'm a robot without a life now. I too can't enjoy anything and the thought of my life continuing like this is unbearable.

thanks for your reply. i also got muscle dysfunction. as a result i got a herniated disc after 2 years. i am also depressed af and i also got cognitive problems, i feel like i am fucking demented. i can't remember anything... this really is unbearable... what did you get prescribed? did you try to taper it with a doctor?

 

[elenaboo25]

My biggest regret is that I didn't go through with my attempt when I was 16 years old. Now I am in my mid 20s, and still want to ctb but now it's harder because now I care about the effect it has on other people.

 

[litany_of_thoughts]

Leaving for uni and not coming back frequently enough to see two of my closest friends before they died. I think losing them is probably the point my mental health became irredeemable - by my own actions, but still wish I never left years later. Wish I was 17 again doing random shit with them. Hurts to think about so I try not to!

 

[soullessnes]

I've got lots of regrets, I wish I was able to live in the country that I lived for over 10 years but sadly had to move back home. Also lots of health neglect.

My fate was already sealed when I was born. I was born to parents that should've never gotten married. My mom is a really great person and could've lived a dream life. But she married way below her standard. Pains me to see her not getting the great life she deserves.

I wish I never existed then I wouldn't need to search so hard for painless methods to finally leave when I can't bear it anymore.

 

[medinjured521]

thanks for your reply. i also got muscle dysfunction. as a result i got a herniated disc after 2 years. i am also depressed af and i also got cognitive problems, i feel like i am fucking demented. i can't remember anything... this really is unbearable... what did you get prescribed? did you try to taper it with a doctor?

Mirtazapine taken twice off label for sleep, and also protracted benzo withdrawals. But the Mirtazapine that caused PSSD is why I'm ending my life.

 

[Forveleth]

Not killing myself when I was 15 and first suicidal. A close second ua not moving away from my parents at 18.

 

[|nobody|]

I regret not getting help sooner so I could've been a better partner. I wish we had made it work and started a family together.

 

[chaoschuckler]

Probably the most serious regrer was that I became extremely withdrawn and neglected my own health. I even attempted suicide by starvation during the COVID pandemic which was honestly a very stupid way to do.
There were also smaller but still important things I ignored. For example, I delayed getting my eyes checked even though my vision was getting worse, and I kept ruining my sleep schedule instead of fixing it early. Over time they started affecting my concentration, energy levels, and motivation.
Academically and professionally, I also regret not taking certain opportunities seriously enough. I didn't prepare properly for a job opportunity that could have helped my career, and I took my uni life for granted.
Another thing that stayed with me emotionally was asking my father whether he truly cared about me. I remember feeling deeply insecure and emotionally exhausted at that time. Even now, I think that conversation reflects how lost and emotionally vulnerable I was during that period.

 

[tomame]

being born

 

[Pluto]

 

[badtoad12314]

phew boy what a question... theres so so much i regret that ive done all my life? i could talk for hours about many things i regret but maybe if i had to pick something its hard but uh i guess opening my eyes to whats around me more is where the decline happened? I mean ignorance was indeed bliss.

 

[Useless Idiot]

Being born..