What is the strongest emotion you have been feeling today?

[Cubashii]

Aggression (in line at the grocery store).

XD I totally feel you!!

 

[Wafflegingers]

Depression, worthlessness, frustration with myself

 

[Cubashii]

Simultaneously restless and exhausted.

I hate the stuck in between. Lay down to go to bed then NOPE back up and you are extremely tired. Try shutting everything down before you even try to go to sleep. Take a light sleep melatonin pill and shower then try to sleep. By the time you shower is through you will be sleepy enough to lay down and get some good rest. This has worked for me a lot.

 

[Cubashii]

worry....

Why are you worrying?

 

[Cubashii]

Depression, worthlessness, frustration with myself

You are not Worthless. Dig down deep and say this: I am not worthless. Because you here for a reason. Maybe its like me helping people recover. You will find what you are meant to be. So dont be frustrated with yourself. You are doing what you can and it is the best.

 

[hikikomori]

honistly indifferent, i fucking hate myself im worthless and alone im going to be unsuccessful in every capacity. but i dont feel sad anymore i miss fealling sad sad was safe. sad was comfurtable and warm

 

[Cubashii]

honistly indifferent, i fucking hate myself im worthless and alone im going to be unsuccessful in every capacity. but i dont feel sad anymore i miss fealling sad sad was safe. sad was comfurtable and warm

When you pass sad for so long it becomes a void. Even standing in sunlight our world is dark. And when you are that far in it is almost impossible to come out. But you have to try. The little things matter when trying to light up whats around you. You are going through a really rough depression thats why its swallowing you whole like this. Have you been to a therapist?

 

[hikikomori]

yes tho being the charming&&needy sociopath that i am my mask got a clean bill of healthi cant help it i have a need to be liked plus i dont wana get sent to another white hospital for wanting to ctb

 

[hikikomori]

i cant evan till whos me or whos my mask anymore

 

[cap]

Playing video games usually helps with me. But is the boredom with a person or situation?

I play video games all the day lol

 

[Wafflegingers]

I honestly think the better answer to that would really be I just want to disappear. Idk what emotion that is, but everytime I look dig deeper I feel everything else I just said. I honestly just want to disappear.

 

[Throwaway563078]

Just daily struggle?

No not a really common emotion for me these days

 

[Final Escape]

No not a really common emotion for me these days

I'm just sitting and sad over knowing I'm going to be trying to die again soon feeling like I have no other options :("

 

[Marc]

pain in my heart

 

[Jen Erik]

Hopeless, restless

 

[Fucking loving it]

Scared. Panicked.

 

[project77]

loss,yearning,fear of missing out

 

[Cubashii]

Extreme depression, sadness and regret. Missing the person i used to be not long ago.

How do you see yourself as a different person now?

 

[Cubashii]

Sadness.

You want to talk about what is making you sad?

 

[Cubashii]

I honestly think the better answer to that would really be I just want to disappear. Idk what emotion that is, but everytime I look dig deeper I feel everything else I just said. I honestly just want to disappear.

That is a rough way of feeling. What happened to make you start feeling this way?

 

[Cubashii]

I'm just sitting and sad over knowing I'm going to be trying to die again soon feeling like I have no other options :("

There are options. You can find people like me on here to help you through this.

 

[Cubashii]

pain in my heart

Is it heartbreak?

 

[Cubashii]

Hopeless, restless

Never give up hope. It is easy to say but It will put you further into the dark. Restless you need to find a quiet place and just relax listening to music and putting all your thoughts away just for 10 to 30 mins. It will really help.

 

[Cubashii]

Scared. Panicked.

What from?

 

[Cubashii]

loss,yearning,fear of missing out

Then take the next step that you need to at starting to come back from missing out. Dont stop your life from fear. Fear can also be a good thing it shows us we do have something to lose. So fight for it!

 

[Cubashii]

I play video games all the day lol

When im not in class I play all the Metal gears, Silent hills, Resident evils, and The cat lady.

 

[Wafflegingers]

That is a rough way of feeling. What happened to make you start feeling this way?

Bad things I've done, and people I've hurt and how much a burden I am.

 

[FootyStar]

Hatred towards my body for disfiguring itself due to disease and a constant desire to destroy it.

 

[cupio dissolvi]

Fear. I'm doing (or should I say trying to do?) exposure therapy and I'm just feeling scared for no fucking reason.

I do some lesser exposures, I'm ok. I try to move out of my comfort zone, I just want it to be over quickly.
Now, the whole point of doing exposures is to feel fear. If you don't, you're not pushing hard enough. So I pick up his photo.
I'm holding it, feeling like my hands are burning because they are somehow contaminated by "him". No handwashing, that's relatively easy.
But I have to look at him.
And my heart is pounding. My hands are shaking. I'm twitching. Repeating sentences in my head. I'm about to throw up.
It's been an hour and I'm just wasting time. I'm screaming to myself, "Your attitude is bullshit. If you truly want to be with him, then you should be able to look at him. Just look at that fucking photo". But I can't. I don't want to look at his face. I just looked at his neck for 3 seconds and I can feel my brain tingling and burning. My breathing is shallow, irregular. I'm a fool.

 

[TheCrow]

Try shutting everything down before you even try to go to sleep. Take a light sleep melatonin pill and shower then try to sleep. By the time you shower is through you will be sleepy enough to lay down and get some good rest. This has worked for me a lot.

Is it sad that reading someone's comforting suggestions to someone else on a suicide website is the most comforted I've felt in awhile? I'm going to answer that: yes.