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keat6890

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Mar 6, 2025
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I have been suffering from depression about 9 years now, and i can't take this pain anymore, I'm so tired and lost... I don't know what to do.
I hate my life. I hate life.
 
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IdentityDoe

IdentityDoe

What is freedom when demanded of you by a god?
Jan 14, 2026
27
Honestly speaking, a Shotgun seems like the fastest and "least painful" but that depends on whether or not you hit the right place, which is luck based. You can still survive this so it's not even guaranteed. Hydrogen Cyanide will knock you out in under 30 seconds, and kill you in less than 5 minutes, so technically it's one of the most lethal ways to CTB without much pain.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,995
I really understand, I just always find it so torturous to suffer in this cruel, dreadful existence, all I've ever hoped for is to permanently cease existing and never suffer again, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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a65b

Mors certa, hora incerta
Jan 31, 2026
21
i od once on heroin, it was pretty peaceful so maybe that. especially if you shoot it up. you just start feeling very sleepy and you only realise whats going on right before blacking out. no panic at all and i dont remember it hurting in any way. felt like absolute shit after being brought back tho
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

Misfit
Nov 6, 2025
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There are many methods too.
Mine peaceful method is propofol+kcl
 
prompt_critical

prompt_critical

On the banks of the Rubicon
Jan 11, 2026
38
If you're American I don't think it's easy to fail or suffer with a gun if you don't aim up
 
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jonoldak

jonoldak

The uncertainty itself is within me!
Dec 18, 2025
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Hanging with the right instructions. I have experience and can say that it is as quick and painless as if it were a dream. And it is so effective that it is even a little scary.
 
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asthedayends00

asthedayends00

flyingtourist
Oct 18, 2024
188
Definitely not hanging lol.. that is unless you're hanging from the gallows
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Hanging with the right instructions. I have experience and can say that it is as quick and painless as if it were a dream. And it is so effective that it is even a little scary.
Oh, how I wish this were true. Maybe it is. I've never committed to FSH. It's possible I'd be out quick.
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
127
I'm not so sure there is a painless, risk-free way
1. So many people here tout SN (sodium nitrite), but recently a member here live posted as he took it. He said it worked quick. Then he said it was like sh*t and he was sweating, his insides were burning, and he had a hard time breathing.
2. I've heard of the CO (carbon monoxide) method failing. Plus there's the risk of fire with it.
3. I live in the USA. In my state, I could walk in a store and walk right out with a gun. But what if I don't aim properly? Even an inch off could cause to feel immense pain or leave me permanently disabled.

I recently talked to a therapist about CTB. (I truthfully told her I had only been researching was in no immediate danger of doing it.) She told me she has had people who had "woken up" from all kinds of failed attempts.

I joined this site to research an easy way to CTB in case I ever got unemployed and AI made it impossible to find work. I was very discouraged that there isn't a quick and easy guaranteed way to CTB. It disturbs me when I think about that.
 
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Riven

Riven

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Oct 24, 2025
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if the only factors you are considering are speed and least pain, id say guns are a good bet. aside from that if you don't care about others theres options like jumping off a tall (50+ feet) building, getting hit by a train, etc. personally i dont see these methods as viable because i dont want to harm others with my death, or at least do my best to mitigate the damage.
 

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