What is everyone's reason for living?

[somiseriously]

If you're not dead yet why are still here? Or what was the reason you lived for before u became like this.

 

[Maki9]

I'm a coward, wbu?

 

[somiseriously]

I'm a coward, wbu?

My parents are monitoring me 24/7 that and I want a perfect death and I've failed multiple times

 

[Aknu132]

If you're not dead yet why are still here? Or what was the reason you lived for before u became like this.

Survival Instinct. Since 12 i want to CTB but my survival instinct it's very high, so i keep getting tortured by life to this day, now i have 21 years old, but i need to find a way to kms.

 

[Bishop]

Because dying is too hard.

 

[morina]

Cowardice, nothing else

 

[Maki9]

My parents are monitoring me 24/7 that and I want a perfect death and I've failed multiple times

What's perfect death to you?

 

[Bishop]

I'm a coward, wbu?

Me too

Cowardice, nothing else

Same

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

fear of failing and remaining ALIVE but with more brain and body damage .

because they made all painless guaranteed suicide methods like Nembutal , Sarco suicide pod , me hiring someone to shoot me in the head 10x into crimes

all we have access to are risky diy suicide methods for which we have no real extensive data and experiments becuase they censored all that too .

and you have to defeat si , do it in secret , not be found etc to hide from the ER because the ER creeps will bring you back to life with brain damage

 

[Wishingfordeath]

I don't have any effective methods.

 

[somiseriously]

What's perfect death to you?

Ig something that doesn't have a chance of me failing and surviving or getting saved by someone

 

[Bitterly_Nostalgic]

The love I have for my pets and family, especially my father and sibling. We're close, I know they love and support me, and the thought of hurting them by making a successful attempt is awful. I at least owe them and myself one more try at getting better, so for now, I live.

 

[extremelyugly]

I don't have any effective methods.

This exactly for me as well. In this piece of trash country, you're locked in living if you're not "normal", which coincidentally would make any ways of CTB for those who are meaningless. Piece of trash country. Did I say I hate my country?

 

[FoxSauce]

Coward and have some hope to maybe things will get better or I just cant seem to end it.

Plus I cant hurt the people around me

 

[ScaredPossum]

I'm staying alive for my friends. A part of me also hangs on to see if I can get an artpiece into a gallery before I leave :')

 

[Heddon]

Found goals worth living for and discovered what actually felt meaningful to me.

 

[allidoiswish]

fear of surviving.. and my mother.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Obligation. Not wanting to hurt loved ones via my suicide.

 

[FuneralCry]

Because I exist in this horrific, evil world where humans have made dying painlessly into a crime, all I want is to erase this dreadful, torturous existence so it's like I never existed at all, to suffer in this existence truly is an abomination.

All I want is to never exist again, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to find peace from the terrible torture and suffering of this existence I just always saw as a mistake, it truly is such horrifying extreme cruelty how humans are forced to suffer in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured that never should had been imposed at all.

To me existence will always feel like the most terrible, undeserved punishment, all that imposing this existence ever does is cause harm, I always suffer so much from existing in this prison anti-suicide world where so many humans want to do all they can to make others be tortured for as long as possible and existing will always be torture.

 

[DonLockwood]

Hurting of loved ones and the faint possibility of it getting better.

also the fact that I cant get any of the methods right haha

 

[Pluto]

 

[Bowerbird]

1. Doves
2. A girl

 

[didei]

If you're not dead yet why are still here? Or what was the reason you lived for before u became like this.

Im not finding the courage im a fucking coward

 

[SendMeHome]

No reason, I just won't kill myself, at least not right now. Fear of condemnation for suicide in the life to come.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Im afraid of turning into vegetable state if I failed my attempts and that will cost me so much and people won't pay for it they want to take everything. I don't have any foolproof method at the moment and I have quite sympathy for the child once I was. I had hopes when I was a child that all my suffering and everything will become better but it turned out worst And I have so so much problem and I feel so stuck. I fear most of the things now. :(

 

[Forveleth]

I am waiting for my subconscious to signal that I am ready to die. I do not make an attempt unless I feel ready.

 

[thelostautistic]

I think fear has kept me going for a long time. I've always felt very scared of dying. At the moment though I'm trying to stay for other people. I feel really guilty about the pain I'll cause if I leave.

 

[softfur]

critters dependant on me

 

[Yuja]

If it were me a couple of years ago I would have said that there weren't any viable ways for me to CTB other than maybe jumping but I don't want anyone else to be traumatized if they saw that (also too scared to actually jump). Now that I'm in college, I've found passion for my studies and want to see where it takes me. If it goes nowhere in the next couple of years I will definitely CTB but otherwise I'll keep going.

 

[hiiiii]

it used to be because i knew it would emotionally destroy my mom, and i really hate the idea of her crying let alone having like a long-term depressive episode over me. she once told me that if i did actually ctb she would do the same afterward, but now i realize that was just like a weird emotionally charged plea for me to #staystrong and she probably (hopefully) didn't mean it since she has 2 other children to take care of. i think now i'm mostly alive in hopes of getting to have sex or kiss someone. i also want to feel like a functional competent adult at least once.