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noname223
Archangel
- Aug 18, 2020
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I think I had this thought when I read about reports of October 7th. That there is video footage of how children were murdered and their parents had to witness it. Unable to do anything about it.
But the same applies to Palestinian parents who cannot protect their children from Israeli bombs/snipers or starving campaigns.
I think my mom loves me. She does not know how close I was to kill myself last October. It just makes me uncomfortable to think about what would have happened to her if I killed myself. I was then in this horrible acute suicidality clinic and we (the patients) all had a guilty conscience towards our parents. She was visibly was shaken just because I was in this clinic. She also reduced the pressure on me because of college afterwards.
The irony is my family (who doesn't know the truth) was actually mad at my friends for calling the police. Because it frightened them. But I think if they did not call the police, I would have likely drunk the SN.
I also read about an incident in Germany. A dad accidentally drove over the baby carriage of his own baby. The baby died. Holy shit. This must be extremely traumatizing. I think he was in denial afterwards. I also experienced a lot of traumatas and I am also often in denial. The guilt must be unimaginable...
But the same applies to Palestinian parents who cannot protect their children from Israeli bombs/snipers or starving campaigns.
I think my mom loves me. She does not know how close I was to kill myself last October. It just makes me uncomfortable to think about what would have happened to her if I killed myself. I was then in this horrible acute suicidality clinic and we (the patients) all had a guilty conscience towards our parents. She was visibly was shaken just because I was in this clinic. She also reduced the pressure on me because of college afterwards.
The irony is my family (who doesn't know the truth) was actually mad at my friends for calling the police. Because it frightened them. But I think if they did not call the police, I would have likely drunk the SN.
I also read about an incident in Germany. A dad accidentally drove over the baby carriage of his own baby. The baby died. Holy shit. This must be extremely traumatizing. I think he was in denial afterwards. I also experienced a lot of traumatas and I am also often in denial. The guilt must be unimaginable...