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What are your main reasons for wanting to CTB? Select up to 3.

  • Physical health problems - Physical illness, terminal, chronic pain, physical disorders etc

    Votes: 31 21.4%
  • Depression - Mild, moderate, severe. Clinical depression.

    Votes: 88 60.7%
  • Anxiety/Anxiety Disorders - Mild, moderate, severe. GAD, SAD, OCD, Panic.

    Votes: 40 27.6%
  • Personality disorders - BPD, NPD, ASPD, AvPD, HPD, PPD etc

    Votes: 18 12.4%
  • Other mental/developmental/neuro disorders - Bipolar, PTSD, Schizophrenia, autism, ADHD, ED's etc.

    Votes: 53 36.6%
  • Addictions - Alcohol, medicinal or recreational drugs, porn etc

    Votes: 7 4.8%
  • Psychological/Emotional abuse - Gaslighting, humiliation, devaluation, verbal.

    Votes: 26 17.9%
  • Physical/Sexual abuse - Hitting, SA, R. CSA

    Votes: 10 6.9%
  • Financial problems - Including severe debt, poverty, homelessness

    Votes: 35 24.1%
  • Social issues - No bf/gf, socially awkward, loner, virgin, outcast.

    Votes: 63 43.4%

  • Total voters
    145
  • Poll closed .
Dark Window

Dark Window

Forest Wanderer
Mar 12, 2024
548
Try to select the 3 most driving your decision, even if more than 3 apply, I wanna know the biggest driving force behind your decision.
 
Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,653
brain injury
schizophrenia
no girlfriend for 20 years
 
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GhostShell

GhostShell

Member
Dec 5, 2023
81
Damn first one to pick physical abuse (forced drugging of antipsychotics by parents when i was a child) feelsbadman.

That plus physical illness are my main two reasons.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
985
The daily bullshit makes life not worth living.
 
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TheLastBoyOnEarth

Member
Jun 7, 2024
92
Physical condition: chronic pain, chronic fatigue and chronic malaise.
Neurological condition caused by my chronic pain illness.
Psychological illness: depression mostly.
 
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maidens

maidens

" more dead than alive, I endure it "
Aug 27, 2023
143
I'd be doing much much much better right now if I wasn't autistic
 
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V01Death

New Member
Dec 18, 2023
4
Well it seems that for my main factors for suicidality, there is more than 3 reasons so I will write them up on descending order by severity (first is the most profound reason and last is the least profound reason).

1. Social Outcast - 12 years I experienced bullying from my peers in school and was social outcast and still are.
2. Psychological abuse - 2 years of sheer malicious exploitation with gaslighting from my peers in college and to add in a victim of institutional and corporate corruption.
3. Depression - 2 years ago I was in severe depression because I lost all hope in society, my projects, and eventually self, now I am 'recovering' kind of with minimal "help" from society.
4. Anxiety - Panic attacks when I am around more than 5 people.
5. Personality and developmental Disorders and - Undiagnosed acute paranoid personality disorder (Recovering) and To be diagnosed Schizoid (SzPD) personality disorder this means that I have to be left alone which is what I always wanted.
 
LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,369
Autism. All the other categories are consequences of that.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
Life itself just isn't worth living for me. That's all. It's life itself that I don't want. I deserve the best and the best that is available to me is death. Death is blissful and beautiful to me as I love the idea of permanent non existence
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

death wont return my calls
Mar 20, 2023
642
Just everything. I keep coming back to my suicidal thoughts. Something gripped me and won't let go.
 
yxmux

yxmux

👁️‍🗨️
Apr 16, 2024
171
Major depression, body dysmorphia, gender dysphoria, schizoid personality, etc. You get the idea.
 
dietcokecan

dietcokecan

The Cosmos is all that is or was or ever will be.
Jun 25, 2024
33
I feel like I would be happy and not suicidal if I were born neurotypical. Being born autistic is a death sentence and has ruined my life.
 
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eatantz

eatantz

I luv dolls
Nov 4, 2023
560
There's no point living a life without love and romance. If I can't love and be loved than I rather not exist at all. Everyday alone is another day wasted, it's all dull and meaningless. And the depression doesn't help tbh
 
easypeasy

easypeasy

The.only.white.sheep
Jul 1, 2024
217
Try to select the 3 most driving your decision, even if more than 3 apply, I wanna know the biggest driving force behind your decision.
Debilitating Pain for 3 years, cruel family dynamics and abuse, excruciating pain
 
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glitteryaliens

glitteryaliens

Member
Mar 19, 2024
22
Financial reasons are the main one. I'm unemployed, dependent on my parents for everything and can't seemingly get any sort of job.
 
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Justnotme2

Member
Jun 25, 2024
17
I cannot bear the fact that animals and people are brutally killed in the world, violence, exploitation, evil, cruel slaughter of animals for food, causing harm and pain for pleasure.
It all killed me.
I hope that I will die as painlessly as possible soon.

Every day, people I love are brutally murdered and sexually assaulted. And they hurt animals. And when I talk about the people I love, I don't mean anyone in particular. I mean all the innocent and kind people who are in agony.
It also hurts me that even in the animal world, these animals gnaw each other for food and live in fear.
This world is a bastard
 
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Edpal247

Edpal247

Experienced
Jul 9, 2024
220
You should have included legal problems.
 
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