Week 2 - How are you today?

[James Sunderland]

Life is heavy, hard for all of us, some more than others. And it's nice to have a place to let it all out and have someone there to listen to you, even if it provides a moment of peace.

This is a open space for anything you are carrying.

For myself,
I haven't been here the past 2 weeks, everything seemed fine up until it wasn't. I feel stressed and growing distant to my friends and future opportunities. I don't know if I can keep up with the changes anymore, but I guess I have to.

 

[Aglossa]

Went to uni but I was just despairing all day, wishing not to be there at all. Went to the bathroom to cut in the break. I was feeling so well last night so this mood swing is a bit of a bummer.

 

[yumeganai]

Stayed home all day but still felt soul crushing anxiety
Its the same shit every day. I stay home I have panic attacks. I go outside I have panic attacks.

 

[nancyboy]

Feeling utterly useless and unloved. I know my partner hates me I don't know why they just don't tell me. Life sucks and I keep splitting. I just want to be loved and be better

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll personally always find it so dreadful and torturous to exist and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence, I just hope and wish to never suffer again. It just feels so cruel and horrible to me how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from all the suffering, existence itself is the true problem to me, I see existence as the most terrible tragedy that just torments existing beings and I find it deeply undesirable to exist as well, to me human existence just feels like a mistake, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence rather I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in being permanently unable to suffer.

 

[binturong]

I'm so tired, so exhausted I don't even have the energy to formulate a reason.

 

[nomoredolor]

I'm on a new mental health medication and am waffling between feeling better and thinking life is worth living (at least for a lil while longer) and desperately wanting to just ctb and not try anymore. I have intense anxiety for the future and no plan of action on how to navigate if I don't end up ctb. Im lonely.

 

[drowinginsorrowww]

I'm here after joining a few years so not great, but I appreciate you opening up this space.
Sometimes I think the universe is playing a joke on me, I come on here and then a family member wanted to play some games and I got happy. Then I realized I'm just back here, in this life. The contrast kills me, I'm having brief amounts of fun dependent on others, I don't have many other people either. Then just poof, back here into depression. It sucks. I'd sometimes rather just it being sucky