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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
What a weak mental structure.

What did I do to deserve it.

More mush than structure. Semi-functional.

Inadequate and at times, maladaptive.

Not able to think and plan ahead for higher goals other than food and evading the responsibilities that I cannot shoulder. Because I don't want to.

No way out. What a shame. A life struggle not meaningful at all.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry you are suffering. Of course you did not deserve this. I understand it is hard to carry on when everything is hopeless. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
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I see myself as a mentally weak person for thinking in ctb. But I can't see any other way. Life is too much for me right now.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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I know that what you describe is not fun. Even proceeding to CTB requires focus, planning and consistency. The cycle of misery has the potential to drag on for a long time when the mind is floppy.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
My mind has turned to mush as well. In this amoeba state, "recovery" is impossible.
 

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