Venting Wanting to end it right now

[Average Joe]

Nice to hear from you.

Did the hospital offer any help?

None whatsoever, I feel like my suicide attempt is very close now. I just want everything to stop honestly

 

[Silver]

Yeah that makes sense. I'm sorry you didn't get the help you sought. Would it be worth approaching them again?

 

[Average Joe]

Yeah that makes sense. I'm sorry you didn't get the help you sought. Would it be worth approaching them again?

I don't have much of a choice. I have to ring them and take responsibility and try stay alive. It's just so tough, I have so many issues and problems and zero motivation to address them.

 

[Average Joe]

It's almost 3am. I've started drinking and I plan to overdose on tablets. There are 1000s of them in my cupboard. I'm gonna get drunk enough to avoid survival instict and thoughts about family and leaving things behind.

I have to do this. I will get drunk, take the tablets. Pack a bag of some items like blades and water and leave the house hopefully without waking anyone up.

I plan on leaving the house, listening to some songs and putting my phone on airplane mode to ingnore any calls from people.
I usually fail by getting caught or ringing a lifeline myself so I have to make sure that I can safely go undetected and hope that the police or search & rescue won't find me.

Will update you if fails and if not then thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this.

 

[whywere]

Hi @Josef2000 , I hope that you might reconsider and try and get some sleep then think more clearly the enxt day. I have had 2 attempts so i try really hard to see and help people. ALL my love and peace (hopefully) in this world. Walter