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Would you rather die tonight in your sleep or win 100 million in the lottery?

  • Die tonight in your sleep

  • Win 100 millions in the lottery


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Lost.Empyrean

Lost.Empyrean

°‧ 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟·。
Sep 6, 2025
46
as great as the thought of dying is, I think money would actually solve quite a few of my problems
 
Apathy79

Apathy79

Paragon
Oct 13, 2019
932
I definitely like the revised question. Much better one to ponder. If you take the $100M, suicide is off the table forever. Do you still want it?
 
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disabledaccount0452

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
Nov 25, 2025
312
100 mil. Enjoy the beautiful things this world has to offer that were previously hidden behind a paywall. A nice world trip for a year for example.

Afterwards give the remaining money to my loved ones or setup a fund for them so they dont gamble/spend it all away instantly :D

Then go back to my original ctb plan if i still feel confident in doing so.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,252
lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,526
i've changed my mind on this one
die in sleep 100%
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Warlock
Nov 26, 2025
701
Buy a sarco pod and sleep in it every night like a vampire does in a coffin. My sleep will be phenomenal. Just the peace of knowing that I don't have to get up in the morning if I don't want to is enough.

Also being able to buy a nice Lamborghini or Ferrari?chefs kiss!

The top speeds on those are upwards of 250 mph,*wink wink*.
 
Tormented Soul

Tormented Soul

Member
Dec 6, 2025
16
Im looking for a blessing of about $300,000. that will buy me my childhood home so i can live peacefully by myself, and pay off my debts and hav about 50G's left over to live on. 500G would be better, but 300G is what i really need.

so yea, 100 mil would do fine as well!

money can fix 90% of my problems!
 
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shylady222

shylady222

Member
Dec 6, 2025
21
With my luck I'd win the $100m lottery and die in my sleep of natural causes the same night 🙄😂
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,252
Je sollicite une bénédiction d'environ 300 000 $ pour racheter la maison de mon enfance, vivre paisiblement et rembourser mes dettes. Il me resterait environ 50 000 $ pour vivre. 500 000 $ seraient l'idéal, mais 300 000 $ me suffisent.

Alors oui, 100 millions feraient aussi l'affaire !

L'argent peut résoudre 90% de mes problèmes !
Money dont résolve m'y problème 😭
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,252
T

ToANewWorld

Rarity
Apr 16, 2025
94
In other words... at least 50% of suicidal people are just broke?!
 
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inkmage333

inkmage333

dead girl walking
Feb 18, 2025
142
Money wouldn't solve a single one of my problems, unfortunately. I'd prefer to die in my sleep asap, just as I have been praying for
 
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ceelobling

ceelobling

Student
Dec 29, 2025
126
I'm surprised about the poll results. Like really? Money over dying in your sleep? I don't care if I had all the money in the world, I still prefer death. Money is not going to change the suffering.
 
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mybodyhurts

Member
Dec 23, 2025
17
If I won the lottery and didn't have to spend so much time fighting my insurance to cover my healthcare I think my mental health would be much better
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,252
Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
309
Money can solve most of my problems and improve my circumstances, so I just want to take a shot and see what life would be like if I had a lot of money. I also want to enjoy myself before I die.
 
Amile

Amile

Member
Sep 17, 2020
47
Now i think prefer dying in my sleep. Im not rich but im in a stage where money doesn't do much for me. and i really don't care about it.
 
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litany_of_thoughts

litany_of_thoughts

Member
Jan 19, 2026
35
I don't care about money/don't really need it (Fortunately I'm able to comfortably live within my salary at the moment, which I recognise is a very big privilege) However, I'd want to win millions, buy enough drugs to get completely fucked and CTB, donate the rest to friends/family/charities scheduled after I die, then see myself off a week after ticking off the bucket list/getting absolutely innocuous. The charities would probably be PCRF, Campaign against living miserably, Alzheimer's society and ADHD/Autism groups! I wouldn't want to wager my own death above the help I could leave behind with that much money tbh. Worth me suffering a bit more just to provide that help (& selfishly keep a bit to satisfy my need to self medicate)
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,252
In two votes 1500 votes
 
TheBag

TheBag

Member
Jan 11, 2026
22
Dying in your sleep could be a overrated. Who says you won't wake up and feel the agony of heart failure or stroke, but are simply unable to move or get out of bed. Sure, in the morning everything might look peacefull...

I would definitely choose the 100 million. For that kind of dough I would have top designers/programmers design me a custom, super live like real doll 😉.

But not before I hire someone to go to Mexico to fetch me some Nembutal.
 
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LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
349
Money could indeed solve tons of things, but dying in my sleep would solve everything
 
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gardenoflonely

gardenoflonely

<3
Apr 29, 2026
36
I wish I could have both. Win the lottery first, spend it on all the things I never got to experience growing up. Maybe buy a ticket to my dream vacation spot. Then use the rest to buy my dream method and ctb.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,252
Mourir dans son sommeil est peut-être une idée surestimée. Qui dit qu'on ne se réveillera pas en proie aux affres d'une crise cardiaque ou d'un AVC, simplement incapable de bouger ou de se lever ? Certes, au matin, tout semblera paisible…

Je choisirais sans hésiter les 100 millions. Avec une telle somme, je ferais appel aux meilleurs designers et programmeurs pour me concevoir une poupée sur mesure, ultra réaliste 😉.

Mais pas avant d'avoir engagé quelqu'un pour aller au Mexique me chercher du Nembutal.
Die without wake up
 
hurts2b

hurts2b

Tired
Mar 14, 2026
162
Both solve all of my life problems. Happy no matter what. :)
 
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Zura

Zura

WhenLife?
Jan 26, 2026
60
die in sleep for me even tho money will probably solve all the problems for me personally it wont necessarily solve anything i dont like about the world and how unfair and injustice the whole thing is and how there is so much evil there is in this world and people get away with it i just want outs and this probably wont even be considered suicide so my family wont think i killed myself which will probably make them a bit less sad
also very creative and interesting poll i had to give it a thought lol
 
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m3nhera

m3nhera

Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
Nov 23, 2025
441
I don't care about money/don't really need it (Fortunately I'm able to comfortably live within my salary at the moment, which I recognise is a very big privilege) However, I'd want to win millions, buy enough drugs to get completely fucked and CTB, donate the rest to friends/family/charities scheduled after I die, then see myself off a week after ticking off the bucket list/getting absolutely innocuous. The charities would probably be PCRF, Campaign against living miserably, Alzheimer's society and ADHD/Autism groups! I wouldn't want to wager my own death above the help I could leave behind with that much money tbh. Worth me suffering a bit more just to provide that help (& selfishly keep a bit to satisfy my need to self medicate)
Wait this is an awesome idea, I'd want to do this too in this hypothetical lol, you're really thoughtful
 
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WrathfulGloom32

WrathfulGloom32

🫠
Oct 12, 2024
1,196
If you give me an opportunity to save others lives, I will always take it, those 100 million dollars are life changing money for people who want to live but are withheld education, nurture, etc.

I would take the money and see how to donate personally to a couple dozen of families, with 4k dollars I can surely pull some strings to find someone to buy a gun from the black market in my country and maybe eat some nice tofu.
 
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