Venting vent

[throwawayghm]

I hate this shit so much im a fuck up and will continue to be a fuck up till I die, I hate this cycle of self hate and guilt i just want it to end, every time I even make a little bit of progress I fall right back down to where I was or lower, there is no rock bottom there's just a giant hole that never ends ive tried to change and I cant ive tried my best but it isnt enough and will likely never be enough idk im tired and am thinking of quitting I don't deserve the opportunitys ive been given and wasted I dont deserve the people around me and I dont deserve life its waisted on me and I wish anyone else was me and I never existed im tired ill either live as another miserable ass fuck up or be a statistic that people will morn for a week then forget about, I don't think this life thing is for me, idk im so fucking tired like I barley have enough motivation or drive to work let alone get out of bed in the morning im not proud of it but I literally have to force myself to even do basic shit like brush my teeth and take a shower I dont even fold and hang my clothes anymore they just sit in a pile on my hamper and I grab what I need for the day I was really against any kinds of medication but rn I can use basically anything idk anymore, I rly want to kill myself but I know ill just puss out again

 

[SomeAdvice]

I am feeling the same way and I fear there is no way out. Like I am feeling guilty of having people attend my funeral. At this point I feel like if I fuck it up and live I will just continue to drag others down with me who will try to keep me afloat.

 

[LostZombie]

awww you poor little thing, it's okay I understand your pain. I do not deserve the love I get, and I just want to go; i wish it were easy for all of us to go. Everyone deserves a death because we cannot consent to being here, why should we be stopped from leaving. I hope find a source soon so you can get the rest you need

 

[sanrioslayer]

We were all brought here without our consent, so whatever opportunities comes in our way we should make the best of. Dont think about what you deserve or dont deserve, we're all just trying to survive. Its not our own fault we're fucked upwe're nothing but a product of our genes and environment, we didnt choose to become ourselves. Dont beat yourself up too much

 

[throwawayghm]

We were all brought here without our consent, so whatever opportunities comes in our way we should make the best of. Dont think about what you deserve or dont deserve, we're all just trying to survive. Its not our own fault we're fucked upwe're nothing but a product of our genes and environment, we didnt choose to become ourselves. Dont beat yourself up too much

Thanks pimp I aprecheate it