VENT: Wish someone would just shoot me with a shotgun and it will be all over

[indianachrome]

It's been a long ass day. So anxious and nervous I was pacing around the damn house. Then drove to the YMCA to be able to walk because i was so anxious. Talked to the doctor and he said i could see him tomorrow. I need some benzos and norco but I don't know if he will give them to me. I wore my back brace all day and it helped a little with mobility and bending over. I'm irritable, anxious mess and my girlfriend still wants to hang out...She is so sweet but why would anyone want to be around this??!!

What if I got cancer and was gone in 3 weeks? Quick exit but sounds tempting right about now. Apologies for dumb rant I just have nowhere else to turn. I have a history of addiction so I'm afraid I want the norco's to get high with; which is bad when you are an addict who has been sober for 13 years.

 

[scordatura]

It's okay, no need to apologise. I'm not sure anyone here has anywhere else to turn. We need a place like this. I hope your doctor can prescribe you what you need, it's always a struggle trying to convince them when I need valium.