utter despair

[here_for_now]

i wish my suffering meant something..

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Don't feel the need to answer it right away, but take a moment to think...if you COULD make your suffering mean something...what would it mean?

 

[here_for_now]

Don't feel the need to answer it right away, but take a moment to think...if you COULD make your suffering mean something...what would it mean?

maybe it could mean that brain and body went through more than they could handle and the last 2 years where i lost everything and i mean everything isnt my fault.

i went from having a car, decent credit score full time job, helping my mom into going homeless within 2 weeks stuggling with addiction, depression, health issues, got 2 life long chronic illnesses that get worse over time, partial disability, burnt bridges, regretful mistakes a lot of guilt.

and just 1 failed suicide attempt.

but honestly if i could just find a peaceful way to ctb before i go homeless i would be so happy

 

[itsgone2]

but honestly if i could just find a peaceful way to ctb before i go homeless i would be so happy

I'm so sorry. You deal with so much. I'm dealing with similar issues but not the addiction and illnesses.

You have regret. Not everyone does. Some people lead poor lives but never realize it. We do. So we suffer. On top of it these financial worries. It's too much. I don't know that any person could deal with all that.

Having regret and seeing what you should have done is something indescribable.