
livinforthelasttime
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- Sep 18, 2024
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Everytime I tell people a little about ny situation, they can only give me useless adive and it use to work a bit, helped me delude myself into believing there are better days ahead. But I've out grown it. There's not a world where my family accepts me for being trans or queer at all, I have no money of my own, I spent all the savings I had ( which is another issue because family keeps asking about it and asking how much is there when I have money in it).
Family will hate and be disappointed in me, i'll probably cause arguments so it's just easier for them too if I'm dead.
I have no desire to do anything, I want to die, I was I was from the US so I could just use a gun for a clean shot but alas. Maybe the best way is to be killed by someone else but u can't exactly just ask someone to do that. And when I thought about that I guess It clicked why people commit awful crimes so that the authorities can shoot them, I don't want to hurt others though, so that's a major no. The only option I think i could handle is hanging but there's no where to do it where I am. So i'm just stuck here feeling desperate for a way out.
Then there's the part that I don't want to be buried as my dead name as "loving daughter".
So many issues, no solutions. I'm so so very tired.
Family will hate and be disappointed in me, i'll probably cause arguments so it's just easier for them too if I'm dead.
I have no desire to do anything, I want to die, I was I was from the US so I could just use a gun for a clean shot but alas. Maybe the best way is to be killed by someone else but u can't exactly just ask someone to do that. And when I thought about that I guess It clicked why people commit awful crimes so that the authorities can shoot them, I don't want to hurt others though, so that's a major no. The only option I think i could handle is hanging but there's no where to do it where I am. So i'm just stuck here feeling desperate for a way out.
Then there's the part that I don't want to be buried as my dead name as "loving daughter".
So many issues, no solutions. I'm so so very tired.