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mymarbles

mymarbles

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Jan 29, 2024
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i'm stupidly trying to od by abusing meds that skyrocket my bp again. even though it's irrational i literally can't stop myself lol. i had blood work done and it did suggest some sort of cardiovascular damage and i saw in my dna test that i have very high genetic risk for stroke/heart attack and stuff and my vision is already going quite blurry and left side numb ☺️ another part of me does wish i had the self control to not try some random stupid way without knowing much biochemistry or whatever but it is what it is tbh. plus i've been going to a blood pressure machine these past few days to make sure my bp stays above stage 3 hypertension which it has! it's also not painful or displeasureable, as of far
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

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Mar 12, 2025
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I can certainly understand and relate, been taking more of my medication while drinking much more alcohol than normal.

Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen.
 
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