Too sick

[d7ez]

Ive been wanting to commit suicide for a while now. I am in a relationship and it's complicated with my depression ruining everything about it. I feel bad for my girlfriend who wants me to be okay but there's no helping me at all. I feel like a burden to everyone no matter what they tell me. I dont plan on leaving a note because no one will care about me only for a week or so and the world won't stop for my death. Idc about my mom because she has the strongest hatred against me and encourages me to do it when I have money so she won't be in charge of the expenses of a funeral. I haven't been eating enough this entire week and no one has texted me until today. I want to hang my self but there's nothing to hold me but my door knob. I really love my gf but with my bpd it's impossible to think straight leading up to this. When I find a way to hang myself I'll do it, I'm tired

 

[Kusogaki]

I would reconsider on your method. Especially because you only have your door knob. Will you be documenting your journey?

 

[d7ez]

I would reconsider on your method. Especially because you only have your door knob. Will you be documenting your journey?

I'll think about it! The other method I had in mind was to slit my wrist and bleed to death. I'll think about it

 

[Kusogaki]

I'll think about it! The other method I had in mind was to slit my wrist and bleed to death. I'll think about it

That is very painful I do not recommend doing! A painless method I recommend shallow water blackout. If you have any questions PM me.

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

Just a thought here; if you don't have access to any safe methods, it sounds like it could be worth a shot trying to get away from your abusive mother first and foremost. Anyone would be depressed if they were in contact with a parent who treated them like that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so tired of suffering, I hope that you find peace eventually, best wishes.

 

[d7ez]

Just a thought here; if you don't have access to any safe methods, it sounds like it could be worth a shot trying to get away from your abusive mother first and foremost. Anyone would be depressed if they were in contact with a parent who treated them like that.

She's been a terrible mother. She's known of my sa for years since I was a toddler and let it happen with family first and my dad's friends and she knew because he confessed to her that they're all pedophiles. I spoke up about my neighbor touching me and she grabbed my private area and squeezed it hard and left me there alone. A lot of pedophiles were involved and once one of them try taking me to their home at night for cash. My mom knows about everything and still wanted my main predator to move in by where I sleep if he was looking for a place to crash in while he looks for a place where he could stay. My mom still hates me since I'm the reason my dad abandoned us. So much happened with the abuse but I won't get into it since it involves a lot of gruesome stuff. I've been trying to move out I need a job first ….sigh

I understand why you'd feel so tired of suffering, I hope that you find peace eventually, best wishes.

Thank you, I hope I make peace with death soon

That is very painful I do not recommend doing! A painless method I recommend shallow water blackout. If you have any questions PM me.

If like to pm you about that method!