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Old

Student
Apr 25, 2024
118
Well, here we go. Tonight I will attempt to use the drowning method (hyperventilation + deodorant spray + drowning).

I can't say I'm not nervous or scared. SI is a bitch and when the time comes I know my heart will be racing up. This is technically a good thing because that means I'll lose oxygen faster and will reach cardiac arrest sooner, but I'm still scared. My plan is to swim out if possible and do it in a place where no witnesses are present.

Eventhough I really want to go it's kind of sad that this is it. I can't afford to fail or back down because if I go another week I will lose my mind. The universe will decide my fate tonight.

If I'm a bitch and don't have the bravery to go through, or I survive somehow, I will come back here and let you know.

Extremely nervous. Someone planning to ctb today?
 
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Old

Old

Student
Apr 25, 2024
118
So I didn't make it. I'm a failure. I'm a fraud. Don't follow my example of being a little bitch. Many things went wrong...
 
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Begotten

Begotten

Member
May 8, 2024
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So I didn't make it. I'm a failure. I'm a fraud. Don't follow my example of being a little bitch. Many things went wrong...
Failing is the normal when it comes to suicide, don't worry about that
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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Don't be so hard on yourself. It's not you. It just is how suicide is. There is a lot more attempts than actual suicides. Also this method usually fails.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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You're not a failure! Welcome back! Don't be to hard to yourself! We're here for you! :heart:🫂
 
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feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
You are not a failure. This is tough
 
jarik

jarik

Student
Jun 12, 2024
160
Congratulations
So I didn't make it. I'm a failure. I'm a fraud. Don't follow my example of being a little bitch. Many things went wrong...
Don't worry, making mistakes is a human thing and we all make mistakes, it will be better next time (if you want to do it)
 
sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
So I didn't make it. I'm a failure. I'm a fraud. Don't follow my example of being a little bitch. Many things went wrong...
On the bright side, you didn't cripple yourself. That means you can try again and iron out the wrinkles in your strategy.

Alternatively, you could try something different. I personally am going with the most lethal method available to me (shotgun) to avoid more than one attempt.

Good luck. <3
 

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