To kill, because they don't love me

[Cirno]

So I recently developed a huge urge to kill someone- preferably my father, or mother. I hate them very much, because they caused me the biggest trauma of my life. It's all because of them that I want to die. It's all their fault that I got molested, SA, bet up, bullied, and eventually fucked up as a person. I want to cope, and I think that the only way I cope with this is either going far far away from them, or taking their lives just like they took mine. What should I do... (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠)

 

[LastNite]

Don't... you'll end up worse than now. Just leave them, run away, move out. Anything but murder. You'll spend the rest of your life in a prison without light.

Also these urges you'd need to get checked out with a psychiatrist. It's not normal.

 

[littlepup159]

Please don't. It will be worse even if u manage to hide bodies for years bcs of your remorse and a fear of someone would find out.

If u have a chance then just leave them and forget. U don't have to forgive just take your attention somewhere else.

 

[bankai]

I'm so sorry, Cirno. I can't condone murder. But I understand. Feelings of hatred. They cause so much damage to us. I would say just try to get away from them and be independent. Cut them out of your life and try to be happy. I think you have a beautiful soul. Don't taint it with murder.



Maybe piss on their grave one day.

 

[StupidCat]

Can you kill me instead, imagine I'm one of them.

 

[Goth]

please dont harm anyone else + itll just make your life 100x worse
uve already given yourself the best answer - going no contact and moving away

edit: forgot to say that having homicidal thoughts doesnt make u a bad person but acting on those thoughts would
not sure if ur up for therapy but talking about this type of stuff with a trained professional could help

 

[Nobodi]

I'm sorry you feel that way recently I've been feeling that way towards to nypd. Try to get away from them far away from them. Sorry you feel that way I too recently developed feeling like that and I never had feelings like that until recently. Get away from them if you can and recollect yourself and try to get a into a space where you can thinks things through . if you ended them you'll just be putting them out of thier misery of existence. I'm sorry you got SA and molested it happen to me by my uncle from my moms side and some dirty cop from the 103 rd precinct during the stop and frisk bullshit. My uncle would squeeze my testilce and I would tell him to stop but he just keep going cause immense pain. I just shugged is off as bullying but as I got older I realized this man was in his early to mid 20 and I wasn't even a teenage yet and he was doing this. Try to distance yourself to think clearly and examine things. I don't know them personally but perhaps they're too coward to end thier lives so they just live with the guilty of all the malice they cause. That's a better punishment then death. When they get old and they life flash before their eyes they will feel all the pain they cause.



According to the the near death experience of some people

 

[Paizen]

So I recently developed a huge urge to kill someone- preferably my father, or mother. I hate them very much, because they caused me the biggest trauma of my life. It's all because of them that I want to die. It's all their fault that I got molested, SA, bet up, bullied, and eventually fucked up as a person. I want to cope, and I think that the only way I cope with this is either going far far away from them, or taking their lives just like they took mine. What should I do... (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠)

Don't... you'll end up worse than now. Just leave them, run away, move out. Anything but murder. You'll spend the rest of your life in a prison without light.

Also these urges you'd need to get checked out with a psychiatrist. It's not normal.

Don't go to a psychiatrist. If what you are describing is what I think you are- which is, your parents raised you to be so maladapted that you got yourself molested and hated by everybody, then it's perfectly normal.

I do think you should go no contact and try and become totally independent. No matter how small of a life you can build for yourself, at least it will be away from your ill-equipped parents. Homocide is never really the answer, it just feels like it is. You'll be alright.

 

[DeadSouls]

Some people don't stand a chance from the beginning. You are understandably angry and hurt,which is terrible,but don't do that. It won't help you,even making one step toward making that happen can destroy what is left of your life, including any autonomy. Xoxo

 

[bankai]

Hope you're doing OK, Cirno. And I hope your parents are OK as well.

Like I previously said. I hope you find your independence and get away from them.