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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,891
I'm told very often, and for a long time now, everywhere I go in real life, that I'm A beautiful soul A beautiful person That I have a very big heart, that I'm very kind...

Okay, but what's the point of all that? These are qualities that are useful for others... but for me? Do they get you a degree? Do they bring in money? Do they give you good health? Do they help you make friends (who aren't opportunists)? Do they help you attract someone (oh no, sorry, you're not good-looking, rejected)?

These qualities are absolutely useless in today's world... they're just a magnet for toxic, opportunistic, and malicious people.

I hâte this life
 
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doomedbynarrative

doomedbynarrative

Losing more of myself every day.
Jan 21, 2026
109
I feel you. A lot of people have very good things to say about me (though I am definitely a villain in a few people's stories) even when I don't think there's much good about me.

We live in a world that doesn't value these things. The universe does not care that we are good or kind or that we try to do good. And our society is increasingly becoming one that doesn't value those things either.

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jerkbybile

jerkbybile

SPIRAL OUT
Jan 21, 2026
14
i wish we lived in a world where kind people did not have to worry about being taken advantage of. it seems at this point there is little reward for goodness in our society. i am sorry you are feeling this way, and i hope someone will be kind to you.
 
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Deepdense

Deepdense

Student
Dec 30, 2025
147
Depending on the way you utilize these qualities, you can pull yourself up off of others.
 
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soul2realm

Member
Oct 12, 2025
213
You are right, they do feel useless at least for the ones who have them. But just like every day is a mystery, here is hoping that somewhere somehow a miracle does happen for the possessor of these qualities.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,891
J'aimerais vivre dans un monde où les personnes bienveillantes n'auraient pas à craindre d'être exploitées. Il semble qu'à l'heure actuelle, la bonté soit peu récompensée dans notre société. Je suis désolé que vous vous sentiez ainsi et j'espère que quelqu'un sera gentil avec vous.
Me too
 
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Dreamwalker

Dreamwalker

Time To Wake Up
Jan 21, 2026
29
I resonate with you !! Living in a perpetual state of anguish really teaches you the value of kindness. I feel like it can come quite naturally.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
630
I'm told very often, and for a long time now, everywhere I go in real life, that I'm A beautiful soul A beautiful person That I have a very big heart, that I'm very kind...

Okay, but what's the point of all that? These are qualities that are useful for others... but for me? Do they get you a degree? Do they bring in money? Do they give you good health? Do they help you make friends (who aren't opportunists)? Do they help you attract someone (oh no, sorry, you're not good-looking, rejected)?

These qualities are absolutely useless in today's world... they're just a magnet for toxic, opportunistic, and malicious people.

I hâte this life
If I could have a functioning life I'd definitely give my best to be as you described a beautiful soul. I wouldn't give a damn if it won't bring me further to anything knowing in the end of the day that I do the right thing would be enough for me.
I get your point many see things like being polite etc as weakness but those people are idiots and if a person doesn't like you because of the reason how you look like then be happy it didn't work because who wants to be with some arrogant trash like that? You want someone who likes you for who you are
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,891
Vous avez raison, elles semblent bien inutiles, du moins pour ceux qui les possèdent. Mais comme chaque jour est une surprise, espérons qu'un miracle se produise un jour pour celui ou celle qui possède ces qualités.
Miracle is ctb
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Student
Sep 10, 2025
123
I'm told very often, and for a long time now, everywhere I go in real life, that I'm A beautiful soul A beautiful person That I have a very big heart, that I'm very kind...

Okay, but what's the point of all that? These are qualities that are useful for others... but for me? Do they get you a degree? Do they bring in money? Do they give you good health? Do they help you make friends (who aren't opportunists)? Do they help you attract someone (oh no, sorry, you're not good-looking, rejected)?

These qualities are absolutely useless in today's world... they're just a magnet for toxic, opportunistic, and malicious people.

I hâte this life
Take it as a compliment. It means that you're a good human being
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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There was an article on cracked they used to run every new year, maybe still do, that is about this. Basically like doesn't care if you're nice, it just cares what you can do. It had some example like a person being injured in a car crash and you ran up and said I'll help, I'm nice. People would just be like, are you a nurse? A doctor? What do you do?

I used to find it motivating. Yet somehow I didn't actually take the advice. I just sort of realized nice didn't mean much. What a stupid interpretation but sort of besides the point

Ultimately now I realize you do need to be nice. The fact that you're a beautiful soul is important and does mean something. But you still need some skill the world values too. It's kind of sad I guess especially today when even a skill might not matter in this abysmal job market.

So I agree they don't do enough but I don't think they're worthless. It's admirable. I think you should take the compliment but know that no, it's not enough sadly.
 
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SufferingDev

SufferingDev

this.dispose();
Aug 4, 2024
77
They say if you have a soft heart, you better have a hard ass. And that is 100% true in life.
 
Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless, Broken Doll
Apr 20, 2023
51
I'm told very often, and for a long time now, everywhere I go in real life, that I'm A beautiful soul A beautiful person That I have a very big heart, that I'm very kind...

Okay, but what's the point of all that? These are qualities that are useful for others... but for me? Do they get you a degree? Do they bring in money? Do they give you good health? Do they help you make friends (who aren't opportunists)? Do they help you attract someone (oh no, sorry, you're not good-looking, rejected)?

These qualities are absolutely useless in today's world... they're just a magnet for toxic, opportunistic, and malicious people.

I hâte this life
I get told things like this a lot. I don't really like hearing it, at least more often than not.

People say I have such a kind soul, that I'm a wonderful person, etc etc etc. But it doesn't mean anything. Being kind has only hurt me.

I think what it really means is that, "You are the perfect person to abuse and take advantage of." Maybe I'm just projecting, but that's my experience with it. I am always the one who has to sacrifice things, I am always the one who has to be unhappy, I am always the one who has to have nothing, I am always the one who gets taken advantage of. Because I'm kind. Because it's easy to do those sorts of things to someone like me. Because it's easy to not feel bad hurting me. Because it's easy to make me be the one to give up.

I think being a kind person is the way to fail at life. You have to be awful if you want to succeed. But I can't do that. I'm still going to try my best to be kind. I can't imagine doing anything else.
 
joegoes100

joegoes100

All Over The Place
Jan 18, 2026
63
I'm told very often, and for a long time now, everywhere I go in real life, that I'm A beautiful soul A beautiful person That I have a very big heart, that I'm very kind...

Okay, but what's the point of all that? These are qualities that are useful for others... but for me? Do they get you a degree? Do they bring in money? Do they give you good health? Do they help you make friends (who aren't opportunists)? Do they help you attract someone (oh no, sorry, you're not good-looking, rejected)?

These qualities are absolutely useless in today's world... they're just a magnet for toxic, opportunistic, and malicious people.

I hâte this life
Call me a nihilist but I believe it's just indirect cope from people who believe in a greater power.
No matter what you believe in, it's a fact that we're a clump of cells that create connections between neurons in order to do what's best for survival. Consciousness and spirituality are just concepts that branched from this fact. Emotions and everything we think and feel is just from synapses occurring by the nanosecond.
 

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