Venting Tired

[stars-go-out]

I was getting better but now I'm getting worse and I just want the pain to stop. I want to stop thinking about the friends who abandoned me. I want to stop thinking about what I lost growing up depressed and neglected. I want to stop thinking about what I could be doing with my life. I want to be alone forever because I'm so tired of being left behind. And I don't even deserve to CTB because then I'll be an even bigger burden than I already am. I can't keep living but I can't die. I just want it to stop

 

[Freebandzgang]

Why do you think you ctb will make you a bigger burden? I agree that it would put it on someone else, but if you are experiencing extreme pain then it would be more understandable to ctb.