Venting Tired!!

[Hhhh]

I've been attempting partial hanging lately. Never had the guts to go through with it, but im still suicidal as fuck. I made the mistake of telling my psychologist about it, and she talked me into a psych hospital. A few days into it, without school and an abusive household looming over me I still just want to choke and die. I've been on meds for months, and now they're giving me even stronger stuff since I'm a danger to myself. Problem is, I'm fucking miserable. I still can't sleep, even when they give me stronger pills. I just want to bang my head against the wall until I pass out. I want to cry, I just want to be gone. Sleeplessness is making me lose my mind, I'm so tired.
The staff, very well knowing I have severe sleep problems, wake me up at 6 and won't let me sleep during the day.
I'm defeated, this isn't going to help me, it's making me more and more suicidal... The pills don't work, even though I've had them changes three times already... I just can't rest, until I fucking die...

 

[Allpainnogain]

I unde stand and I am so so sorry

 

[JadedGray]

I'm very sorry for what you're going through. I hope you can make it through this and find peace eventually. Nobody deserves to suffer like this.

 

[Alchemist]

I understand how you feel, it's horrible to feel so apathetic and being unable to do anyting about it for the same reason. It's a vicious cycle.