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Bear1234
Student
- Jul 8, 2024
- 136
Im sad. Thats really it. Health issues hold me back. I have the SN and AE in my closet. I have some procedures coming up that *may* help but I've been trying for over a year with different modalities and failing. I don't understand why im even holding on so hard, like life ain't even that worth fighting for but here I am fighting, going through daily turmoil to try to stay alive. It sucks to be in limbo. When you know theres no hope left and now you gotta CTB, then its rough too but when there is some hope still and you are just holding on to that 5% hope, its terrible. You feel cowardly for not already ending your life. This shit sucks so big.