tired of being ill

[anesthetized]

thanks to an abundance of health problems, I also have an abundance of appointments I have to attend. I also have an abundance of fucking insurance issues because I'm poor. you need referrals for fucking everything and then there's prior authorizations and shit that doesn't get filed and then I, the patient, has to be the one to sort everything out so I can be seen by a doctor that wont do fucking anything for me, schedule a follow up, and send me on my way. I'm so tired of the fucking technicalities of the modern world. I'm always struggling to figure shit out. sometimes I just consider not going to doctors anymore because they don't do anything for me anyways and its just a fucking hassle. really, I wish I could just kill myself already so I wouldn't have to even worry about it. my whole life is going to be like this and I don't look forward to it. I don't look forward to any aspect of my future whatsoever. I'm just stalling and suffering in the mean time

 

[mourningyesterday]

feel you entirely, i only leave my house to go to appointments and after years of suffering my health has only gotten worse, its so exhausting cant believe my life ended up like this

 

[darksouls]

the same as you
doctor visits
hospital stays
trouble with insurances
these are my main activities

 

[anesthetized]

the same as you
doctor visits
hospital stays
trouble with insurances
these are my main activities

it fills my planner

 

[sinfonia]

I feel you. It's insane that doctors (at least in my country) don't offer online appointments for first visits; because all they ever do during those is note down you symptoms and tell you to schedule a second appointmenr for more testing. Mind boggling how there seems to be no sense of urgency anywhere outside of emergency care.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

The worst is getting a claim denied. I once had to send in my entire medical file, letters from multiple specialists I'd seen, and several medical studies just to get approved for a relatively minor procedure.

 

[anesthetized]

I feel you. It's insane that doctors (at least in my country) don't offer online appointments for first visits; because all they ever do during those is note down you symptoms and tell you to schedule a second appointmenr for more testing. Mind boggling how there seems to be no sense of urgency anywhere outside of emergency care.

fuckkk this is such a specific struggle but i agree. theres a pain psychologist i was referred to but her office is 2 hours away from my home and ive never been able to find the time to get over there

 

[tanshakti]

the same as you
doctor visits
hospital stays
trouble with insurances
these are my main activities

same, its like soulless effort that you dont have energy or reason, but just to prolong suffering

 

[AuraByte]

I'm sorry. I'm chronically ill and understand the struggle.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm sorry you have to deal with all this. I hate the saying, "you're not alone," but welcome to my world. Dealing with chronic issues are so lonely and depressing. Not to mention, it's expensive being sick. Nobody understands how it feels to live this life, but we really aren't living, we just wake up to the same problems day after day! Nobody seems to understand, don't bother trying to explain, they will never understand. We don't have any quality of life. Our bestfriends become the pharmacy! If we dare get exhausted with all this and want to check out for good, we are considered crazy, irrational, and here comes a new psych diagnosis! Its a lonely path and I'm truly sorry you have to feel this way. Don't ever feel like you're alone because I promise you, I definitely understand. Hopefully, our buses are coming soon