Discussion Tips to accept that im going to CTB

[lovelulu]

Im going to kill myself this year, I swear on it. I just need a rope and time to write my notes. I was going to write a note to my freinds but honestly, I dont think they'd care. The only people my death would have a impact on are my parents. Anyway, can anyone give me tips to like accept the fact that im going to do this?

 

[ginko0]

I don't know...I think suicide is such a personal thing that no one can really teach you how to embrace it.

Most I can think of is the old Memento Mori. Realize how everything is destined to die — the ones you love, the ones you hate, animals, plants, planets, stars. Soon you'll feel less scared of death. If it's inevitable, why should one fear it? It'll sound like a mundane thing, which it truly is. Death surrounds us.

 

[darkandtwisty]

Most I can think of is the old Memento Mori. Realize how everything is destined to die

This is a side note but dammit, every time I see memento mori, I hear unus annus chanting in my head and I really hope someone knows what I'm talking about!

 

[VoidBlessed]

I'm dealing with this too. I'm trying to engage with the fear and hesitation and face what I'm afraid of. Doing research on the method, being honest with myself about my motivations, a lot of drawing/art/writing to feel the emotions I need to feel. Also meditation, visualizing going through with it, getting used to the emotions that will come up with I do it for real so I know to expect them.

 

[Jello Biafra]

Im going to kill myself this year, I swear on it. I just need a rope and time to write my notes. I was going to write a note to my freinds but honestly, I dont think they'd care. The only people my death would have a impact on are my parents. Anyway, can anyone give me tips to like accept the fact that im going to do this?

This 100% has to come from you, as I don't feel comfortable encouraging someone to ctb. It's the biggest decision you will ever make and is irreversible. It should always, always be the last resort.

I'm not trying to be preachy or anything, but I'm old enough to know that a lot of things that seem so world ending at the time, most often turn out to be nothing. I'm not saying this is the case with you, I'm just speaking in generalities.

That said, I do support everyone's right to do what they want with their lives.

If you are having doubts, or 2nd thoughts, which is what it sounds like, I would say you might not be 100% on this.

Use your imagination and hypothetically think of what would need to happen in your life to want to continue to give it a shot. Don't focus on your weaknesses - we all have them. Try to focus more on what you are good at.

If a genie could grant you 1 wish, what would it be? CTB is not an answer - has to be something that would make your life worth living for.