Hey Everyone,
Hope yous are all well.
I am 100% sure on it that I will be ctb this weekend, it is not impulsive and I have been thinking it/practising for months now (partial hanging ). I did order SN, however I cant wait around for weeks its getting to much.
I have tried all options, medication, therapy, mental health teams etc. The fact my ex is not letting me see my daughter through stubbornness and I cant afford court is all becoming to much, along with the fact there is another guy on the scene spending time with my daughter is becoming way to much to handle. My daughter isn't even 2 yet - so she wont remember me which will be the bonus as she wont go through the loss of me etc as she doesn't understand those things yet and also hasn't seen me for 3 months as it is because her mother wont play ball.
So my plan is Saturday - Why Saturday ?...I have arranged to have a drink with my best friend and his wife ( they don't know about my plan ), it will be for me a final farewell. I am going to get shit faced to overcome the SI and head back home to my garage. I spent today setting up the rope etc. So all going well my suffering stops on Saturday night at some point.
This site has been a massive help and everyone on it is so friendly.
Hope yous are all well.
I am 100% sure on it that I will be ctb this weekend, it is not impulsive and I have been thinking it/practising for months now (partial hanging ). I did order SN, however I cant wait around for weeks its getting to much.
I have tried all options, medication, therapy, mental health teams etc. The fact my ex is not letting me see my daughter through stubbornness and I cant afford court is all becoming to much, along with the fact there is another guy on the scene spending time with my daughter is becoming way to much to handle. My daughter isn't even 2 yet - so she wont remember me which will be the bonus as she wont go through the loss of me etc as she doesn't understand those things yet and also hasn't seen me for 3 months as it is because her mother wont play ball.
So my plan is Saturday - Why Saturday ?...I have arranged to have a drink with my best friend and his wife ( they don't know about my plan ), it will be for me a final farewell. I am going to get shit faced to overcome the SI and head back home to my garage. I spent today setting up the rope etc. So all going well my suffering stops on Saturday night at some point.
This site has been a massive help and everyone on it is so friendly.
