This really is it

[XXXTENTACION]

@XXXTENTACION nice build man. Are you on gear?

Yeah dude and been training 17 or so years...hard as well.
Size is the prize....
Swoll is the goal

 

[finalgoodbye:(]

Yeah dude and been training 17 or so years...hard as well.
Size is the prize....
Swoll is the goal

Looking big bro, best of luck

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Looking big bro, best of luck

Cheers dude, that was in my lean phase at about 100kg, off season I was a monster at about 120kg.
Consistency is key is the best advice I can ever give anyone

 

[Traveller12724]

Any reason you chose this specific day ? I liked that you are going out in the garden surrounded by nature and beauty I assume.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Any reason you chose this specific day ? I liked that you are going out in the garden surrounded by nature and beauty I assume.

To be honest, I've been waiting weeks to do it but my ex wife's comes over a lot and I can't do it when she's here. She understands my pain and is sad about it but willing to let me do what I need to do. Tonight has just worked out nicely

 

[Traveller12724]

To be honest, I've been waiting weeks to do it but my ex wife's comes over a lot and I can't do it when she's here. She understands my pain and is sad about it but willing to let me do what I need to do. Tonight has just worked out nicely

Okay best of luck again! Find the peace you seek! We are all here with you so you are not alone in your final moments, I am writing letters and finalizing my preparations, I hope to join you on the other side some time this week hopefully so save me a seat!

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Okay best of luck again! Find the peace you seek! We are all here with you so you are not alone in your final moments, I am writing letters and finalizing my preparations, I hope to join you on the other side some time this week hopefully so save me a seat!

All the best to you too my brother, I'll been seeing you soon x

 

[Wolf Girl]

I hope you find whatever you're looking for you. I feel I may join you sooner than later.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

All the best to you man.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

I see you're online. What happened?

 

[bankai]

I see you're online. What happened?

He changed his mind/postponed.And thank God. That's a welcome relief from the usual people who just end up taking the bus

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

He changed his mind/postponed.And thank God. That's a welcome relief from the usual people who just end up taking the bus

I'm lowkey happy for him. He seems to have a lot of good things going on in life. I wonder if the gear + benzos threw him into anhedonia. I think that was a factor in wrester Chris Benoit's tragic end.

@XXXTENTACION - Do you think your chemistry is f'd up and maybe that's part of why you can't be happy?

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Unfortunately I'm still here but it wasn't through choice. I had been drinking most of the day and then took a load of Zopiclones in preparation for the exit bag. Whilst waiting a little bit for them to kick in I spent a last few moments hugging my amazing cat Koopa, he's my world. Time, drink and drugs all got the better of me and I fell asleep on my sofa with Koopa and quite loud music playing. Next thing I know im being woken up my a load of police, paramedics and fire service in my living room at 3am! Turns out my nosey neighbour called them stating I might be in danger and gave them access to my garden and they let themselves in the backdoor! Although I stated I was okay they had their concerns and made me attend hospital (which I've now discovered they did unlawfully and am making a complaint). Once in the hospital I was seen by the mental health team and they decided yesterday morning to keep me in under section 2 of the mental health act so I can be held for up to 28 days so im currently sitting in a hospital ward waiting for a space in a secure hospital.

This is the last outcome I wanted to happen! Just got to play the game now and get out.

Thank you for your messages though.

 

[peanutsandjelly]

OOF, that's probably the worst thing that could've happened. I don't get mad but I would've been upset... and extremely embarrassed. I am so sorry that happened to you. What is one supposed to do when their neighbor now knows and could call any time.

Though it's very funny that you passed out sleeping like an old man, on a chair of all things too. I hope that doesn't happen to me XD

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Wtf, that's probably the worst result. I am so sorry that happened to you. (But it's kind of funny that you passed out sleeping like an old man. I hope that doesn't happen to me XD)

Don't mate, I was absolutely livid!
But don't worry, I played along with their little game, said all the right things and showed the right responses and body language etc and I got released after 2 nights. Back at home now

 

[bankai]

What is up with these stupid bloody neighbors? This is kind of a universal issue with them.

Anyway, good to see you back and reunited with koopa

Bide your time and wait. A better time will come eventually.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

What is up with these stupid bloody neighbors? This is kind of a universal issue with them.

Anyway, good to see you back and reunited with koopa

Bide your time and wait. A better time will come eventually.

Mate they are the worst! I guess with each failure in life as long as you learn something from it that's the main thing.

That's literally the only good thing, more time with Koopa, fucking legend!

That's exactly it, my time will come again at some point.

 

[bankai]

Mate they are the worst! I guess with each failure in life as long as you learn something from it that's the main thing.

That's literally the only good thing, more time with Koopa, fucking legend!

That's exactly it, my time will come again at some point.

I think it's better to plan ahead in the future

 

[Thunderstorm]

Koopa sounds amazing and lucky to have you

 

[XXXTENTACION]

And here is the absolute light of my life himself. 14 years young

 

[Thunderstorm]

Cute

 

[felloffmydinosaur]

I'm new here, and phew these threads can make my heart pound a little bit! It's like you never know how it's going to end

I'm glad you're back with cute Koopa, and sorry your neighbor called the cops. I guess I would too if the music was that loud? I'm not sure. But it's interesting that they called for the reason they did.

Dude, you're fucking ripped though

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

Rationally, I can only say that you won't miss anything. In any case, death is our only goal as soon as we are born. If you have freed yourself from the fantasies, mysticisms, etc. that end up keeping most people going, even better. There is nothing here. Just illusory moments that we create. And a bizarre instinct to try to survive like any insect does.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I'm new here, and phew these threads can make my heart pound a little bit! It's like you never know how it's going to end

I'm glad you're back with cute Koopa, and sorry your neighbor called the cops. I guess I would too if the music was that loud? I'm not sure. But it's interesting that they called for the reason they did.

Dude, you're fucking ripped though

Yeah it can be a bit of a roller coaster at times, I know I've had my fair share of that.

I appreciate the sentiment but ultimately it's not the outcome that I wanted. I've got a bit of a history with my neighbour, we used to have drinks together and stuff so they know a bit about me and my issues but also one of them is a policewoman so that didn't help

Haha cheers pals, just a shame my face looks like a monkey emoji though

 

[sweetcreep]

i hope your time with koopa feels like eternity, stay safe friend.

 

[felloffmydinosaur]

Yeah it can be a bit of a roller coaster at times, I know I've had my fair share of that.

I appreciate the sentiment but ultimately it's not the outcome that I wanted. I've got a bit of a history with my neighbour, we used to have drinks together and stuff so they know a bit about me and my issues but also one of them is a policewoman so that didn't help

Haha cheers pals, just a shame my face looks like a monkey emoji though

Yeah, it's odd when it seems someone has been successful. I'm happy for them but it's.... weird.

Haha! Even the monkey is hiding his face I need to start working out. I lost 105 pounds but have like zero strength in my arms and hands now.

That's rough, I understand people's need to 'save us' but I also don't really understand why people think it's their place. Cops, hospitals, the associated mental, personal and financial costs... is just kind of wrong to force on others.

 

[Paizen]

Rationally, I can only say that you won't miss anything. In any case, death is our only goal as soon as we are born. If you have freed yourself from the fantasies, mysticisms, etc. that end up keeping most people going, even better. There is nothing here. Just illusory moments that we create. And a bizarre instinct to try to survive like any insect does.

what a beautiful set of words

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

what a beautiful set of words

Maybe because non-existence is truly beautiful. Even in words.