I actually managed to go out and buy a shotgun with ammo. all I have to do is aim in my mouth at my brains and pull the trigger and it's game over. I'm scared. I hope I have the strength to do this. I'm really scared. Not of dying but just of.... I don't even know. Maybe that's the survival instinct. But this is it. There's nothing holding me back but myself. I think I'll try to muster up my strength in my mind before I actually do it. I want to call my brother too just to prepare him for the fact that he's going to have to take care of my family from now on. I'll probably post again before I actually do anything. I was actually thinking of stabbing myself in the heart first to make SURE that I die. Thank you for your continued support.
DepressionsAHo
Heaven gained a new ho
- Feb 15, 2019
- 831
Your head is going to be blown off it's shoulders and brains splattered all over the place. There's no need to stab yourself in the heart too. It creates an unnecessarily horrific scene for others to be exposed to
200_ponies
Member
- Apr 8, 2019
- 32
Hi there. I just want to say first that I'm not trying to stop you at all; I just want to give you some advice before you go.
Make sure that whenever you do pull that trigger, you're ready. There's probably no backing out once you do it, so it's okay to be scared. But if you feel like this is not the time then don't do it yet. You have everything you need to ctb so just wait a little while if your fear is too much for you right now. And just know that we're all here for you if you do decide to go through with it. I truly wish you the best of luck in whichever option you take.
Also, I would not recommend calling anyone beforehand. They may find you and save you somehow. Try to send them a note or an email or something less instant. Make it as detailed as you need, but make sure you don't run the risk of being caught.
Make sure that whenever you do pull that trigger, you're ready. There's probably no backing out once you do it, so it's okay to be scared. But if you feel like this is not the time then don't do it yet. You have everything you need to ctb so just wait a little while if your fear is too much for you right now. And just know that we're all here for you if you do decide to go through with it. I truly wish you the best of luck in whichever option you take.
Also, I would not recommend calling anyone beforehand. They may find you and save you somehow. Try to send them a note or an email or something less instant. Make it as detailed as you need, but make sure you don't run the risk of being caught.
I was also going to use a shotgun to blow my brains out, but then I googled "failed shotgun suicide survivors" and I saw all of the pictures of the failures.. with my luck I would be one of those failures
GeorgeJL
Enlightened
- Mar 7, 2019
- 1,621
I am not convinced that shooting yourself in the head is painless. As long as you have blood and oxygen it will be painful. Pain isn't just created by a module in the head.
What It's Like to Get Shot in the Head
"Did you feel pain? Oh yeah. A lot of pain."
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What It's Like to Get Shot in the Head
"Did you feel pain? Oh yeah. A lot of pain."
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TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,132
If you are still around or haven't gone through with it, I will say I concur with @200_ponies about being as discreet as possible and sending a delayed email or note, something not instantaneous. If you aren't here anymore, then I wish you the best of luck, and hope you are able to find peace.
