There's too much against me. Thought I could be strong, but I don't really see a point anymore. Not blaming anyone but myself, for letting my life spiral down. Should have been more disciplined. Might have helped me stick a round a little longer. Back in 2019, I was already venturing this site. Things sort of stabilized, where I could bare the day to day pain. I don't know anymore, but I do know that if I left today, I wouldn't be leaving much behind. I'm glad I never had any kids or married. It would make it much more difficult to part. The rest of my family, should be able to overcome and move forward. Not the first in the family that goes down this path, might be a trend of fate.
