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Life sucks

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Apr 18, 2018
2,134
Now I don't know. I don't know why I'm even existing.

Things like chains, knots, maybe locks and gates are forming around my head and chest squeezing me, sometimes it's painful that I want to impulsively ctb. I don't know what's the mess anymore. This pain is dangerous and life threatening

I don't want to live and stay like this.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,070
I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. It sounds really horrible what you are going through. I can imagine that it must be unbearable being in so much pain. This life really is so awful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. It sounds really horrible what you are going through. I can imagine that it must be unbearable being in so much pain. This life really is so awful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thank you. It's really an awful trap :'(
I wish you the best
 
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chocolatebar

chocolatebar

Paragon
Jul 11, 2021
973
I had a few impulsive moments lately, but it only made things worse for me
do you live with more people around? If so, impulsive suicides cam make things much worse for you. I was almost sent to a psych yard
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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Now I don't know. I don't know why I'm even existing.
I can relate, I really don't know either. I'm just taking up space and time and resources on most days.

I'm sorry to hear your pain is so bad and I really hope it can get better somehow or you can find a route to go that is best for you. Best wishes and thank you for writing.
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
I had a few impulsive moments lately, but it only made things worse for me
do you live with more people around? If so, impulsive suicides cam make things much worse for you. I was almost sent to a psych yard

I'm mostly alone but I'm still trapped, I can't form a plan or take action even if I'm impulsive

I can relate, I really don't know either. I'm just taking up space and time and resources on most days.

I'm sorry to hear your pain is so bad and I really hope it can get better somehow or you can find a route to go that is best for you. Best wishes and thank you for writing.

Thank you, wish things better for you too
 
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chocolatebar

chocolatebar

Paragon
Jul 11, 2021
973
Ctb? I have but I don't have method
Other goals I can have but I struggle with thinking
I see... the mental fog makes things much worse for us, unfortunately.

Like looking everywhere and finding nothing but despair
 
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