Discussion The weeks before your death

[Jon86]

Did the suicide attempt not happen?

They happened, partial suspension. This was 6 years ago, and about 6 months ago. Same theme, quit job, note written, enjoyed myself for a couple of weeks (food/drugs), and then failed in exiting. First time, I couldn't get it right, the last time I knew how to do it just couldn't. Many failed attempts from survival instincts this last time.

I care very little about anything nowadays, like I used to. Whether, I die or live a long life, I really don't care, it doesn't matter. I've been depressed for 20 years (severe depression) and faced so many indignities at this point that i'm in a state of apathy that disgusts me. I'm forever fucked irregardless of what happens from here on out.

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

I imagine I will mostly try to wrap up as much as I can, interspersed with secret weeping and trying not to let on what will soon occur.

 

[Toenditall]

Work my ass of so there's money in my bank the help pay for everything when I ctb

 

[Eden2k]

Your cat sounds sweet X

I only adopted her last month, and I already love her. Only 15-16 weeks.