I think differently than those that answered in that trolly website and from threads here on this website also i think differently from people on this website.
Every problem is the trolley problem.
neal.fun
I decided to think from first principles or that to me absolutely 100% are facts after thinking and researching after a long time. Some things that seem like facts to me are
1. Me suffering extremely or constant unbearable pain is the worst thing , by far outweighs any pleasurable addiction. This is one of my top goals avoid me suffering constant unbearable pain at all costs. What is worth even 5 minutes of the worst constant worst pain every second. To me nothing is even worth 3 seconds of the worst pain . Anyone can be captured by a gang and put in a room with nothing to do and tortured. Just sitting in an empty small locked room with nothing but a toilet water and bread is torture proving life is bad. How many hours days or weeks will suffering in an empty room become unbearable even though u have the basics shelter food water a toilet?1.6 million people in the US attempt suicide per year with brutal methods like guns showing how bad life is.
2. Me every human will die soon cause life is short. How fast did the last 5 years pass by?
3. There are many horrible things that can happen to me & any human any day.
4. A human is just cells the same cells as other animals.
5. Nothing matters. What will matter in 1000 years a trillion years? Life has no objective meaning no objective purpose.
But "enjoy yourself ". Yeah break ur back every day working a job and chores dealing with problems for a few fleeting minutes of "enjoyment" that are not worth the worst torture possible that im risking to "enjoy myself". This "enjoy myself " is what caused me to not see reality like these principles and distract me waste my time when I could have been working to get my suicide method and mindset ready to kill myself
6. Every thing dies decays breaks down becomes disordered even me a human humanity life the sun earth the universe: the law of entropy the 2nd law of thermodynamics
7. So many horrible things so much evil so many lies scams in the world. For example this evil suicide prohibition that keeps one in the prison unable to escape extreme torture
8. These principles so far and many others show me that nothing matters or should matter to me except me avoiding constant unbearable pain and getting my suicide ready to go and killing myself asap. Non-existence forever is the ultimate perfection
9 . Many more including specific personal horrors